As a Proud Malaysian

今天的馬來西亞氣氛很奇怪 奇怪大概是自己的心理作祟吧
因為明天會是馬來西亞的投票日 也就是大選
早個幾年我大概不可能知道自己有一天會這麼政治"熱感"
甚至過去除了安華我歷任副首相有誰都不知道
可是現在我可以對許多選區的候選人名字面孔政黨瞭如指掌
還參加了三場政治講座 看過我其中敬佩的雪州議長鄧章欽 (決定忍著不再說他躺著都會贏) 曾經的副首相如今的反對黨領袖安華 還有公正黨署理主席 Azziz Ali (個人相當喜歡這人的風格管他甚麼種族) 等等不下十人...
每天用心看星洲 (你或許想問我這報紙怎麼還讀得下去 每翻兩頁就一大版BN/MCA/Najib 的新聞 這就是我厲害的地方 我都跳過與它們有關的新聞資訊廣告...) 還有追蹤facebook, tweeter 的消息
公平的說句 其實網絡上的極端人士很多 很不理智 很不humane (用華語我會說"不像人" 所以還是寫英語好) 也很野蠻... 事實的真相也不容易知道 就靠我們自己去判斷 而不是一味的吸收與憤怒批判... 不簡單 很不簡單...
但是許許多多的事實擺在我們的演前 卻不難讓我們發現 就算手中握有一票 也唯一在這個時候我們才像真正的"老闆" 可是面對黑暗的政治手段與 manipulations 我們能做的事情卻這麼的少...
感覺是多麼的無力
原本我並不想在這個時候寫有關大選的Blog 一方面我是個有話直說的人令一方面我不想被抓 -_- 可是今天我真的不想再看報紙了 看那毫無新聞自由的報紙 完全被管制的報紙電台電視...
很難接受這麼多的捏造恐嚇卻依然可以平和看待不生氣罵粗口...

寫了這麼多 只想說要是明天是一場公平的選舉 我支持的清廉公正公義的一方是會贏的 這是我堅信的 只可惜 它公平嗎? 透明嗎? 值得相信嗎? 沒動手腳嗎?
不管結局如何 至少我參與 也會去盡我身為公民的責任早些出門投上一票 並盡量確保自己投的不是廢票...
不是這樣嗎 參與了 出了一份力了 要是結果不如所願 也只能說這世界或許本來就沒有那麼不公平的事
因為馬來西亞已經是這麼一個沒天災又富有天然資源的國家 要是還出現了公正廉明的領導人 不就太幸運了...
(也順便補充說明其實我真的挺生氣符合資格卻又沒登記成為選民的人或者不去投票的人 可是其實我自己也是 只是我沒登記卻已經成為選民 比起那些登記了卻被除名的我還是要幸運得多吧?! 又是黑暗唉)

話說回來 我也不是真的那麼支持某政黨某聯盟的人
只是我學會兩線制的好 我想完全不貪的官員 做久也會貪 也會懶 也會攬權濫權...
完全不貪的一定很少 只是現在這群勇士 很大部份都是受了高深教育的專業人士醫生牙醫律師大學講師成功企業家 etc etc 那麼賺的行業還犧牲自己和家人出來參政 可以想像他們迫切想改變的心 所以自然比某些人抵抗誘惑的能力強多了吧...

願明天的馬來西亞是 光明 和平的

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People trying to reach it to CNN
Pledging governments of some other countries to stop their people from intervening the Malaysian's election (which should really be a election that is completed by only Malaysians!)

P.S. 沒想到英國回來後寫的第一篇竟然是政治有關 還用了久違的中文...
#五月五 #PRU13 #GE13 #inikalilah

Leaving people I love

I'm probably the person who has the most leaving dos done from work, and it's been going on for over two weeks now. Tonight is the last night, we were out for drinks, I wasn't even sure if I was drunk (just 2 pints, so I shouldn't be) but it did appear to be so for them. 

I hate leaving. I stood out there after they walked me home, I just stood there and cried. I was sad because I am leaving these people that I love, but I'm even more sad because I see tears in them. I kept saying this isn't the end of it, but by heart we all know, at one point of our life some people may appear to be so important and special to you, but 10 or 20 years later (if not less) when you look back, they are just part of the memory, part of the history. 

Though one thing that I always do, I keep people in my heart. I reserve places for different people, big and small places. And nothing changes this, not even time. 

I never knew it could be so difficult, or I may have done done a different decision. The saddest part is life will move on, the things that you cry about today, no longer matters some days later. Sad, isn't it? No? I don't want these people to just be in my memory. That ain't good enough. Tell me think about them and have a smile on your face? This ain't good enough. I want to see them, and smile. 

Nothing I can do to change. I will let go one day. What's worse, one of them is going to drop me off in the airport tomorrow... 

Good Bye 2012, Hello 2013!

In the year of 2012...

1. I completed the Master of Science Foundations in Clinical Psychology and Mental Health.
It wasn't an easy task, mainly because I continue to work part time in North London Forensic Service while studying in Brighton. But I did it, with a merit. I'm pleased. This shall be the greatest achievement of the year.

2. I had lived in one of the most beautiful cities in the UK.
I have moved from place to place, Brighton is my favourite! It's such a young and happening city, yet it's not one of those busy, stressful and humanity-losing place, because it's at the same time very close to the sea, with very beautiful sunset almost taking place every night.

3. I went to Norway (Oslo, Flam, Bergen, Flam) and Switzerland (Geneva, Interlaken, Luzern, Zurich) for holidays
This is definitely one major dream fulfilled. Norway is such a peaceful and beautiful country! I hope it doesn't change and I'd get to revisit it one day.

4. I have seen the Northern Lights!
I never think I'm this lucky, but we were! It was amazing, somehow incredible why the green light moving in the sky. Nature once again proved to me that it can be so incredible and beautiful, let's do as much as we could to protect it.

5. I visited Amsterdam, Holland.
It's a beautiful yet not peaceful city, I missed the chips!! I have seen tulips (though we were a bit early in terms of season) and windmill. I have been to Holland, don't sell me to there - their red district is eye-opening. Haha.

6. I made the decision of leaving the UK and my first full time job in my life.
Put it this way, I learnt that what's more important in my life. (More about this later!) I just bought the ticket today though, on the last day of the year!

7. I made some really excellent friends from work.
I'm going to miss these people so much when I leave.

8. I went to London 2012 Olympics, Badminton quarter final games!
This was an experience. Can I be greedy and hope that I can go to the next one in Rio? :X

9. I have seen my first concert in my life - Mayday in London.
One night of "singing along", now I am really a fans of Mayday. Hopefully I will get to go to more quality concerts in the future.

10. I started the Diploma in Cognitive Behavioural Hypnotherapy
Oh my god I still got to complete the assignments! and for the Advanced diploma in Stress-Management and Resilience Building,

11. This is random but I can now put on contact lens easily. Thanks to Specsaver (sounds like an advertisement?!)

12. I'm now an auntie of three!!!
I can't quite believe this, I have never met any of them yet although Adelyn is almost 1.5 years old already!

13. I went to see my favourite musical - Lion King!
It was simply "goosebumps-growing" amazing!

14. I started the journey of capturing beautiful things, almost not missing any opportunity with my Samsung Galaxy S2.
I'm very happy with people who really appreciate me sharing my life and beautiful views with them.

15. I have put on too much weight this year!
Now that all seems so great, there must be things that isn't going so well... =.=


I'm grateful, very grateful, for what I have achieved and been given opportunities to achieve. Have a healthy and blessed 2013!

End of Another Chapter

Huh what?!?! I handed in my research dissertation today! That unofficially marked the end of my postgraduate study. Oh my god, I still can't quite believe it, this feeling is incredible (the 4th or 5th time I'm saying this today XD).

It hasn't been an easy year I've got to say, but now what? It's all over. I'm once again... "no longer a student". I didn't quite feel it this strong the last time I completed my undergraduate, though that was an exam that marked the end.

Guess it's just important to thank everyone especially my family and some close friends who make this whole year easier for me, and to make this possible. I truly appreciated that! I also made a few cards using the pictures I took in Brighton as a farewell gift to some international friends and as a thank you card to some who have really helped me. :) Now I can only hope that it all goes well and I can wear my gown again on January next year :D.

I'm going to relax!! and enjoy Brighton, for the first time, without any "immediate" stress, I'm going to enjoy Brighton. Oh by the way, I've got so tanned when a friend visited me last week and we kind of crazily walked by the seaside all the way to Marina then to Hove. If mama sees this she's going to think this is how I looked when I was in Hin Hua. =X (to be honest even I couldn't quite recognize myself from the mirror =__=)

Anyway, if you were to ask me about my future plan. Well, I have two more stages of Hypnotherapy diploma to complete in September. Then hopefully do some travellings in european countries (and visit Miriam in Hamburg!!). Depending on what HR says, I might come back full time on my job in the hospital - my manager would be happy with it. Then I should be going home. I'm going to work with people who need me!!! :)) If like most of my colleagues you're going to ask about doing a PhD, yes!! But not now... I'd love to become a student again, but seriously, I'm not a study freak, that should take place at some points of my life when I know what I'd love to spend three years with.

P.S. Oh my god, the label "my PG study" will probably never be used again?!

Another Leaving, this time a Discharge

先前写过一篇一名病人因癌症去世 今天我送走了另一个病人
可是这次他是被 discharged 了!! 这是我的 ward 里最年轻的病人 是我比较喜欢的一个
可是后期因为他有很多 overnight leaves, 外加我减少工作时间所以不常看到他
看到他被 discharged 真的很开心... 虽然其实有点不舍得 可是我还是不断告诉他请他不要回来
不管要做什么都要 think twice before doing any things that might bring you back
希望他有听进去吧 毕竟他还年轻 (才大我一岁) 大把前途 没道理把一生困在医院里 (话说爸爸在英国是医生 妈妈在美国是律师 父母我都见过 我一直不明白他怎么会在这里!! [医院])
话说在这个 ward 里工作已经一年十个多月 这才第三个被 discharge 的
话说第二个被 discharge 的还回来了 (不过没有回来我的 ward)
其他大部分离开的 有的回去监狱 有的去了更 high security 的医院 虽然也有两个去了更低 security 的ward 可是他们到现在都还呆在那里 每次在 grounds 看见他们都会问他们怎么还在
虽然这样问其实很残忍 (谁不要自由?) 可是其实我也很心疼看这些人把大把青春耗在这个地方

今天送走他 我在想其实我或许不适合这分工
不喜欢离别 虽然有的病人比较不熟 可是相处久了 送走谁都会有点不舍
当然还是最希望他们的离开是好的 希望他们不再碰不该碰的东西 不再做不该做的事 病也不再复发...
还是庆幸今天能送到他 衷心祝福他 也希望其他病人会慢慢好起来并被 discharge.

还有一个老人家 一个超烦的老人家 超喜欢烦我的老人
他是个很挑战我的耐性的人 可是我这么久以来就今早差点对他"发脾气"
因为其实他很可爱 他只是很"病" 外加牙齿掉光 今天又拔了几颗 现在只剩三颗 所以他说话的时候很好笑 (也很难明白)
他的病情不轻 常常在 ward 里叫 要不是因为他年纪大 早被其他病人殴打了 (话说病人虽然是病人 敬老这件事 他们其实还真的是会的...)
昨天就告诉我他 700 岁了 后来又问我要不要做他的 sister (我想他 700 / 60 岁 怎么能做我 brother) 他还继续说 这样也就做了 Obama's daughter... 原来他是 Obama 的儿子 所以我要是做了他的 sister 我也就是 Obama 的女儿了 XD 能说他不可爱吗?
不忙又有心情的时候 耐心听他讲话其实很有趣... 他心情好的时候也会在 ward 的走廊上唱歌 然后会害我(们)也不自觉的跟他哼起老歌...
当然他凶起来生起气来还是很恐怖的 只是他不 violent 他也还是会对我还有几个他比较喜欢的 staff 很好...

有时间的话 我或许该多写这些 因为我想以后的我 会觉得这一切像梦 也会很怀念这一切... 

Good Bye

I have been thinking to write about this, but haven't really got the time for it. I work in a forensic mental health ward (as most of you would know by now), had never thought I'd have to face that - we have a patient that passed away last weekend.

Perhaps it's not right to say that I never knew I'd have to face this, because when he was sent to our ward he was already terminally ill. We spent a lot of time making sure he was okay. And this is a man with great sense of humour, I mean - a nice companion. Guess what, maybe it was such a coincidence, I blogged about him before, back then he was so, so unwell that I had to share my experience with him (Blog post: I want sex!!). Oh yes, he was the one who first saw me, told me "I want sex! I want sex", he was also the man who didn't use the toilet and slipped on his own poo in the seclusion room.

If you still remember, he was sent to highest security in the country because we couldn't have him there. He was then diagnosed with cancer and deteriorated. Staff there decided that they couldn't keep terminally ill patient in such high security, so they sent him back to us.

This man only saw me once a week, sometimes once in a fortnight, but he never forgot my name. On my first shift with him, he directly commented that I must be very hardworking at the end of the day when I went to sit by his bed. Slowly he deteriorated on our ward, up to a point he was so ill that they had to send him to A&E, and was then transferred to CDU (Clinical Decision Unit). I went there for about 8 hours last weekend. I met his twin brothers and had quite a long conversation (or according to him, it was more like one of the brothers "lecturing" me. hahaha). I walked him to the bathroom, and I gave him my right arm telling him this was his walking stick, he then hold my arm and dance, while humming a song that I didn't know. Of course he couldn't even walk properly, leave alone dancing.

But it was beautiful. I came to realize I brought this man laughters. Despite all the pains he was in, he was always positive. At times I found that too positive. I have to say this is the kind of experience I probably wouldn't forget. Unfortunately the rapport was built, then we lost him.

I didn't think about it at all when I was told the news that afternoon after he left. It was a "noisy" shift with some nice staff, nobody really mentioned it, I didn't think about it either. But that night I couldn't sleep, I thought about him and my tears dropped. I suppose it wasn't sadness, at least he is now no longer in pain.

In fact he is a "legend". I wish someone can study him in depth. Because back then he was so, so ill, so unwell mentally. But the physical health problem "took over". Don't ask me how this can happen. Nobody knows. We all wonder. Because most of us met a version of him that was so crazy so mad so unwell so... you name it. But we all met this "version" of him who's so grateful, so positive, so friendly. He was always grateful, with the time with we spent with him, with the help we offered him.

On my last shift with him, he was in the bathroom when a member of staff came to take over me. I insisted to wait till he came out so that I could tell him I had to go and a goodbye (no, in fact I always say "see you later" rather than "bye"). With him you never knew when it would be the last time you can see him. I'm glad I waited, because that was indeed the last good bye.

Rest in peace.

‎"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around."
- Leo Buscaglia

Netherlands Trip

01.04.2012 - 04.04.2012

Can't be bothered to write, pictures say it all!

World of Heineken. Recommended. There are a lot to "play" inside. plus you get 2-3 drinks!! XD

This is example of "what to play". We took this picture and had it sent to our mailbox. (Though it went into my Spam folder..)

Chips from this shop is VERY nice. A lot different types of sauce too. The source of me having sore throat then fell sick during the trip! Recommended still!

Keukenhof. It's a must go. Lots of tulips. It's a bit too early for the season, so most of those in the garden are not fully blossomed. But those indoor ones are very beautiful too!

This is from outdoor (obviously). Very beautiful!

Windmill in Keukenhof. Get to go up and take a round. Very "cute". hahaha.

We went for Thomascook Canal Cruise. Be warned that you aren't allowed to bring food up as we bought chips thinking we can have it on the cruise ended up have to finish them by the river. =.= The journey was quite long, not very informative. We went simply because it's included in the "package". Wouldn't recommend if you have to pay for it.

This is the Old Church. Picture is taken during the Canal Cruise. Very nice picture isn't it? Credits to the photographer - myself! xD

Red light district. Quite an interesting experience.

You-know-what-it-is! Otherwise the answer is also in the picture.

Wooden shoes. Cute. Haha. But not nice to wear.

Windmills at Zaanse Schans. Unexplainable excitement to see the windmills. Maybe being brought up knowing windmill is something "from Hollands" and is famous there thus it becomes a must to see their windmills!

Cheeses! They look funny. Some taste nice but some don't! This is also in Zaanse Schans. (Don't ask me how to pronounce it..)

Her name is Miffy. If I'm not mistaken there's a story or comic based on her written by a Dutch half a century ago. She's very very cute!

Many many Miffy(s). Some are her family maybe. Haha. This is also in Zaanse Schans.

Not 100% sure about the link between Netherlands and Indonesia but apparently Indonesian food there is quite good. This one is Restaurant Bojo. The picture might not look so, but it's very very yummy (and big portion!) (And not so pricey)

During the last day of my trip I was pretty much sick despite pm and fel lending me their jacket I was still feeling really cold. Be warned that early April can still be quite cold!

Overall it's a great trip. Amsterdam is a must go! Although I still don't know why people like to say "sell you to Hollands ah" or "got cheated to Hollands"? xD

五月天 Just Rock It 伦敦演唱会

Wembley Arena, London - 27.03.2012 1930-2230

话说从小到大没去看过什么演唱会 前几个月在纽西兰的婉倩在 fb 上分享说五月天会过来

不知道为什么有种想去的感觉 问了问周围的朋友 都兴致缺缺 我就不了了之了

谁知道 26 号那天五月天来了 阿信分享了一张照片 一个朋友 Belle share 给我

我就告诉她说我没去 找不到 kaki

结果呢 竟然很巧地被中学学长团的嘉伦看见了 然后说他也要去!! 还知道哪里可以买票

(而且很值得 因为是从买了票却不能去的人那里买的 便宜了二十几磅 更巧的是卖票的香港人 是我一个新加坡朋友的朋友@.@)

就这样弄着弄着 去了!!!

首先话说我虽然听很多人的歌 记歌词能力也不错 但是对五月天比较 popular 以外的歌都不知道

所以就听了一个晚上的 mayday (又因为本人不能一边听歌一边读书 所以就把整个晚上牺牲掉了) 还紧张得没睡好 =__=

其次这次一起去的 是我中学毕业到现在六年多没见的朋友 这感觉未免也太奇怪了

(还好他人没变 感觉还熟悉)

阿信

开场之后发现之前的顾虑都是笨地 因为有荧幕有歌词 根本不用做功课(既记歌词也)也可以

而且其实大部分歌我都会唱 *得意*

开始他们连唱几首都不说话 后来其实他们说的比我想象中还多...

包括用各种语言介绍了一下 (其实不就是石头用英语 其他的就用中文或闽南语 =.=)

还分享了在伦敦一日游做了什么 和 如果还有下辈子还要再干嘛

(其中阿信和怪兽说了要再学吉他 石头还要再来伦敦 (玛莎说什么我不记得乐 =_=) 冠佑要当导游去北极看北极光 这时候阿信说了冷笑话 说如果看不到北极光 看北极熊脱光光可不可以 换作平时我会觉得这笑话很 lame 但是当时候就笑了出来 =__=; 后来发现其实冠佑答非所问)

然后当然他们唱了很多歌 *废话* 从初中听过地到今年的新歌..

满满地感动

他们各自也呈现了一段乐器表演 超厉害!! 希望有人录下来分享..

而且encho后还唱了四首 人也太好了吧!!

荧幕中的是不甩头鼓手冠佑

还有荧幕上分享了很多他们的照片

还有很多他们的第一天(包括出生日期)

他们组团在 29.03.97 就是明天 成为明星却是 07.07.99

这是我大概记得的 还有第一次在伦敦的演唱会就是我们见证的那场

阿话说那也是我和嘉伦的第一场 =.= (只能希望下次见面不是又过了六年!)

今天整个人还是没办法走出来 还在图书馆里哼他们的歌

那感觉像昨天作了场梦 很美的梦 ...

*人生短暂 去疯 去爱 去浪费*

Bye Bye UK's Bpeng

Just came back from Birmingham this afternoon, went for a short trip to say good bye to UK's Bpeng. Hahaha. So what's this "UK's Bpeng"? Because I'm sure we're going to meet when I'm back to Klang, and hopefully we'd be friends for the rest of our lives. Yet she's leaving England on coming Tuesday, for good, i.e. probably not coming back anymore (unless for travelling? which wouldn't happen in near future). So the goodbye is only for the Bpeng in UK. xD

Although we hadn't lived together since June 2010. But we had been staying together since Sept 2006, in Harwick the student hall, then 2+ years in Elmfield house in Cheltenham. Without her I probably wouldn't even have come to this country =O. And she has been a very very very supportive and helpful housemate + friend + companion + coursemate =D.

Some pictures of us =D

Ski Trip in Austria. Dec 2008.

Fake smile xD. Dec 2008

Sammi's house. March 2009.

Graduation. Nov 2009.

Chiquito. June 2010.

Greece Trip. Oct 2010.

Thanks for everything and I wish all the best for you. =)

Good Bye 2010 and Happy 2011

It's 2011.01.01 and I'm now in the ward doing night shift. A bit strange not having any particular feelings welcoming a new year, probably because I'm working. But it's probably the best night shift that I've ever done because I'm doing it with someone who can keep me talking and listening all night.

I would normally blog about what I've achieved and experienced at the end of each year. But this time I'm not going to bother those bits and pieces, just some significant memories that come to my mind at the moment.

Beginning of last year Erge has got married, which is my first sibling getting married, and made my family into seven members, major event of my family in recent years. I also went back for Chinese New Year after missing it for 4 consecutive years.

Major life change would be the job that I have got at April and started working full time for the North London Forensic Service at July, which is my first ever full time job. A job I have enjoyed to the fullest and been trying to learn as much as I could. It changes my mind regarding how I can help the mentally ill, stimulate my brain, and inspire me what I want to do in the future. Get to know group of very supportive and helpful colleagues.

Surprisingly this year, opps, I mean last year we only visited Greece - normally would have been to more places. That was a great trip with Bpeng, Peiman and Felicia - hopefully not our last trip together.

Other than that, there was also my first blood donation experience (New Blood!), moving out to live on my own in London (Officially a Londoner), first theatre experience watching the Phantom of the Opera and first thought of seeing someone from an entirely different culture.

And I'm just very grateful, for whatever I've got in the past years, hoping the 2011 would be good as well, if not better. That's for now. Wishing everyone a blessed and healthy year. =)

The Memorables 2009

In the year of 2009...

Final Semester of the Final Year of my BSc. - 5th Jan

This is definitely a semester that I made myself work harder, especially on dissertation. Although the whole degree, I hadn't really put my full effort (if it were to be compared with high school). And, three years seemed to be a bit short, and is it time flew?

Dissertation Completed - 21st April

It was the first time I did my assignment this way, that I ignored all the day/night time, I just worked, slept, ate.. If I was tired I just slept, and ate when I was hungry, other than that, I would be doing my dissertation all the time. The final draft were completed on 30th March and handed in on 21st April. (Well Done?)

Final Exam - 28th April - 7th May

The very final exam of my degree. Results came out in June and I've got a first class. =D

Viwawa

A gaming site that played very important part in my life this year. I don't know why as I got to know this site far earlier but I only become kind of addicted to it this year. (but it's well under control now =P) (Zany Bridge)

Attending KimFoong & William's wedding - 18th May

It was a special experience. And also a great trip with Sammi, Stephy and Bpeng. (Attending a wedding)

My 22th birthday - 17th June

I have been in the UK for 3 years yet this is the very first birthday celebration in the UK. Thanks to those great friends, specially to Bpeng! (The 22th birthday)

A special friend was also welcomed to my life few days before it..

First summer in the UK

Spending my summer time for the first time in the UK and seeing all the UK good old friends leaving one by one.

It is also a period of relaxing job hunting, got to some interviews but didn't get any job offer =(

Drug and Alcohol Service - volunteer - September- November

I went through two interviews successfully and became one of the volunteer under training for the Drug and Alcohol Service in the Independent Trust.

The course lasts for 10 weeks and it was really comprehensive and informative.

Post Study Working Permit - September

Sent the application out at beginning of September and got it back three weeks later, it has allowed me to stay in the UK for two years.

Family Visiting the UK - 7th Nov - 27th Nov

I was really excited upon their arrivals!

We visited London, Edinburgh, Bourton on the water, Avebury, Stonehenge in the UK, and Paris, Disneyland Paris, Venice, Pisa, Florence, Rome in Europe. It was my second visit to some of the places and it is really different to visit a same place with friends and family.

I think the trip was kind of long that it was quite tiring yet we had a very good time. It's good to see them here after so long not being at home, and good to show them around the places that I have been for three years.

Graduation- 19th Nov

The graduation ceremony itself doesn't worth much words but I was glad that family has been here for me and for it.

We also had a short gathering with those good old friends in the UK.

-For the past 22 years of my life, this is the only year that I'd never stepped on the land of Malaysia.-

Here comes to the very end of the year 2009, good bye to 2009 and..

Happy New Year 2010!!

Have a blessed and healthy year!!

In 4 days

I just want to say

THIS FEELING IS SO STRANGE!!

that my papa mama ahjeh and gogo are coming to the UK

to travel and to attend my graduation ceremony

No doubt I'm really looking forward to it..

as I havent gone home for more than 1 year already.. (it's a new record =D)

I've started count down since 29 days ago

but it's strange

imagining the place that I've been on my own for 3+ years

and they are "appearing" here!!! here with me!!!

(would be perfect if erge will be here too, but i accept imperfection (= )

I hardly remember my dream

but I dreamt about it already

I'm really looking forward to it.. and I'm really, kind of.. nervous

in which.. I dont know why!!!

We are going to do a lot of travelling..

to some nice and famous places near to Cheltenham

and also London, Edinburgh, Paris, Rome, Venice and Florence..

Oh people I'm going to be busy, but I hope we'd all get to meet up especially those that are coming back purposely for the graduation ceremony... (but I understand that everyone would have their family to "take care" of)

Hope everything would be alright.

and everyone gets to enjoy to the fulllllesttttt!!

I'm also praying hard for Peiman and Bpeng will get back their passports asap too (=

The 22th Birthday

Skype with family

Mum, sis and bro skype me at 11+pm.. Hehehe.. can't believe nowadays mama also sleeps so late edy... although I get quite annoyed because they actually discussing what cake they want to buy to celebrate MY birthday WITHOUT ME... but still feel happy la.. think this is 2nd birthday i'm not celebrating at home? Also, now only I know that my chiense birthday passed already! (on Sunday the 14th >"<)

Egg Dinner with Housemates

Thanks to my sweeeeetest housemates (Bpeng, PuiMan & Felicia) for the dinner. Although obviously it can't be compared to those I had during my past birthdays at home, but it's still sweeet and nice. Why is it called the Egg dinner..? Because.. errrr.. I kind of love eggs, and thus for the dinner, 4 persons had 12 eggs! LOL

MidNight birthday 'surprise'

Frankly speaking I wasn't expecting it, I thought there are now so few of us here in the uk, I thought even if there was a midnight surprise I should deserve a slightly warmer and nicer one.. Until when we were having dinner, Fel mentioned "Ohh.. then we can use it tonight hor.." That reminded me all those lovely birthday attacks. Then at around 11pm, when i was enjoying movie in my room, somebody sticked a note on my wall

You know, this is soooo "helpless", you know what you're going for, you know what's waiting for you out there.. and you can't pretend like you're tired have to sleep yet you MUST go (?)! Fel wanted to blindfold me.. and for sure rejected by me.. then when we were walking a lil bit further in my house garden.. I saw group of them edy.. Haihhhh.. Haihhhh... then i turned from a clean and ready-to-sleep look, to... @#$%^&* with flour powder water cream.. Next was a birthday song, a wish that I can't remember what I've made, blowing candle.. THEN, I've got more cream as they said I still looking too clean.. zzzzz...

(photo taken from Jocelyn's blog)

and you know, actually I was not even interested in attacking back (since having so much previous experience, I'm not liking having bath at 12-1am.. so I wouldn't want to do that to them).. But YERRR.. they all.. so evil.. =SS Yet funny la, especially Shinyee and Jocelyn.. omg, I still can't help laughing the way Jocelyn ran and.. lolll. Ok, this sweet surprise thing spoilt 2 things - my flipflop, and my LG phone (again! *later found it seems to be working again).................

Different time zone wishes

Like celebrating the new year 2009, I'd also got my birthday celebrated in different time zones.. from friends in Aus, M'sia for sure, then Russia, Poland, UK and finally US.. ahahhaa.. kind of interesting.. ((=

Anyway thanks to everyone, I mean, everyone, and extra credits to Bee Peng (forgot this on my speech). Thanks for the effort and time, the party and food, the cream and flour, the presents (!!!), the calls from farrr away, the sms, messages on facebook and msn etc etc.. THANK YOU! I've made my wish for you.. heee..

[to be continue... maybe]

P.S. This is also the 100th post of my blog.

='(

Can't believe they both are leaving us tomorrow..
or ehmm.. 12 hours later =(
Really feel quite ... ... Hope I won't be tearing la..

Sammi de de

Stephy de de

Guess what we're doing..?

Hehehe.. I'll remember the smell


All the best and have a safe trip..

I wish we could have become so close during the first year we knew each other
I wish I could judge people better so that I know these girls are such great friends that shouldn't be missed
I wish they would be staying here with us...

I miss you even before you guys leave *sigh*

ahahahaha...

Today! brings all the exam and stress to the end, this morning I've completed my degree unofficially!

As I mentioned in previous post, my exam today is on 9.15am, which means we would need to take the 8am bus to the park campus. And!! I was so careless and thought that the bus was 8.10am instead of 8am!! (it's normally on 10 past of every hour, but the first one is somehow different >"<) Luckily Bpeng reminded me and we 2 ran to the bus stop.. phewww luckily we still managed to catch the bus but could hardly breath.. Then, did a bit revision before the exam and went in like usual.. This very final exam brought me a somehow different experience, because I requested to go to toilet when I finished the first 3 questions (4 short essay Q in total). Nothing special la.. 11.15am sharp, I completed the final paper of my degree! Would like to make an Official Thanks to..

HsiangYek
CK Cheng
WeiShan
Sammi
Stephy
Jocelyn
Ruby
Jeffrey
Safia
Naina
Nick (YongKang)
LiJi
Evonne
LiWei
YongHan
Brian
Alice See
Cathy
Ariel
Jun Yi (He said he wanted to wish me but never saw me online)
Marcus
YingLing
Jancie
MingNi
Justin
+ those who wished me on FB

Hope I didnt miss anyone out. Some of them are really damn nice and sweet! purposely text or sent me offline message on msn (coz I seldom sign in msn recently). And of course my family, although they dont normally give any physical support but they are always the ones that motivate me and keep me moving on. Hmm.. They made me feel I'm blessed throughout the exam, although this doesn't mean I'd score well.. but at least I'm happy with the questions come out and my way of answering them la.. I tried my best! (except PY316 though) the rest, leave it to the markers.. (=

BTW, I feel sooo empty now. It's like nothing to focus in life now. This probably explained why I wasn't excited as I expected. Yesterday when I was doing the final bits of the revision, I already started to feel that I'm going to miss STUDYING very much.. Anyway, not to say too much of those, because Bpeng, PeiMan, Sammi, Jocelyn, Ruby, ShinYee, WaiLeng and Marvin havent finished theirs yet! Best of luck to them!!

For fun: My surname. LOL. Took the pic after exam. (It means exam PY310, surname Adlam to Teh, alphabetically)

Half Year

It's now half a year I blog here in huibee.blogspot.com (which is my 3rd published blog after thespoke and windows live space)
I think previously I did aim to reach 100 posts in six months and obviously - I failed, 15 more till my target :(
Blogging too less in recent few weeks
Just reread nearly all the posts this year
Kind of impressed by my passion on blogging, and my views on some sorts of thing
Guess I'm really kind of forgetful person - thus it's good to keep a blog
It reminds me about myself, my dream and helps me to see my growth and changes
Many people around me start or start again to blog, which is quite nice
as you get to know how life of your friend is through blog fairly easily
But the thing is I just realized the blogs that I'm following exceed 30 already!
they are all bro, primary and high schools friends, ELS friends, uni friends etc (still exclude those that I care yet they blog in windows live space which following here is not possible yet)
And I feel I'm not really able to read so many posts especially some (bloggaholic?) friends (e.g. Nick, Peiman) has new post daily or nearly daily..
so it ends up I just read the first few lines, if I'm interested only would I click on it
Is it good or bad huh? Or I should be more picky - dont follow so many people's?
Yet when I decided to follow every single of them, I'm pretty sure I'm interested in reading it or in knowing this particular person

Anyway, hope I would keep blogging, no matter how busy or boring life is..
and one final thing - Many thanks to those have been reading my blog and/or leaving comments for it.. They are very very much appreciated, they mean a lot to me, especially when I'm down, and they keep me carry on too (:
with real hope, i will be celebrating its 1st, 2nd, 10th.. anniversary

417

不是我不明白 /梁静茹 & 卢广仲
曲: 林稘玉 词 : 李焯雄

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Just saw friend sharing this on FB, worth sharing it too, agree?
Heard the song quite a few times, felt it was just kind of normal Fishy type love songs (except the fact that the lyrics was really well written - deep though)
but watching its MV may somehow make you feel different (:

All England Super Series Badminton Tournament 2009

I can't believe that!! I had been wanting to go to watch since I came to the UK, and thanks very very much to Jeffrey (for what? I dont know!), I think it's he and me that make this happened! Although it's not the final match, I'm more than happy and contented today.. really, very seriously. Let's start the day from the noon, when we (Bpeng and me) were in the train..

Marv called me, asking where we were and guess what? they were having lunch in the same restaurant with Lee Chong Wei, Tan Boon Heong and their coaches. OMGGGG!! I was damn excited after hearing that, and feel like jump from the train and run there!!

After arriving, we rushed ourselves there to meet Marv, WaiLeng and Dayna. At the second I pushed the door in, guess who was at the other side of the door....... Taufik!! Then, trying to calm myself, we sat down first and started a bit chatting, while waiting Chongwei they all to finish their meals.

What next? two persons passed by, WaiLeng and Dayna were saying something like "two gays", but I recognized them!! the one walking at the front was Xie Xin Fang (谢杏芳), and of course the guy walking with her was Lin Dan (林丹).. I got kind of excited and asked Marv, shall we.....?!?!

Then immediately, not even Waileng being able to react, Marv, Bpeng and me ran to chase them.. lollll.. I swear, I never did this in my life, I never chase Leehom, SHE, Yanzi or whoever!! And my first time is for LinDan.. -_-" Then we realized two of them were pak-tor-ing.. But insisted not to let ourselves regret, we decided to interupt them.. while Marv and I were still discussing who and how to approach them, Bpeng already went to say "不好意思" (excuse me).. Then we took photos with them..!!!!!!! although they didnt seem to be very happy, but still quite friendly la.. (at least didnt say no ma!) I was so excited that my hands shaked! Before we left, we did remember to 加油 for them..

Superstar Lindan and his pretty gf.

Then with such huge excitements, 3 of us went back and took photos with ChongWei and Kuan Beng Hong, at this time, Tan Boon Heong went to toilet -_-" (when he came out and saw us taking photos, he walked out directly...)

The Malaysian happy family.. :D

Guess who took this photo? The couch!! lol.. they're very friendly!!
Look at his smile, so ... err.. fake yet real, guess he learnt that from me..
Next I saw Marv and WaiLeng busy taking photos with the couches, whereas ChongWei was doing nothing there, so I approached him and said "宗伟,可以跟你再拍张照吗" OMFG, I called him ChongWei... -_-" it's like we are old mates or something like that.. *shy*

Errr.. I feel I look like a superstar, more than he does.. XD

The world number 1s, I've met them both!! taken photos..!! We were so excited and couldn't calm ourselves down for such a long time..!! seriously... My brain wasn't functioning after that, didn't even feel like eating although I was really hungry! It's kind of waste not taking pics with Tan and also Taufik.. it'd be perfect if we'd met Koo Tan also..

Then in the evening, we walked to the NIA to watch the quarter final matches. Kind of disappointing and I guess it doesn't really worth my sleeping time to blog about it.. Ahahaha.. just kidding, but the matches of the Men Doubles, both were disappointing.. : ( we watched 4 Malaysians games, and only ChongWei won.. Even Koo and Tan lost : (

But it was GREAT!! to support the Malaysian team live! not on the TV, not shouting to the TV, but there, when you shouted "malaysia boleh" or "xx jia you", they can hear it! To see some live matches just right in front your eyes, and our seats were great too! To feel the smash and the reactions of the audience.. very ganjiong!! To shout randomly with some other unknown yet familiar malaysians. To meet those superstars.. well worth.. seriously!

Very happy today, very distinct exciting experience.. Hope the Malaysian badminton has brighter future.. and those top seeded players can be... more stable! I'd want to go again if there is another opportunity! Malaysia Boleh!!

Happy 2009

Spending the first day of the year the way I want at home, kind of contented as this indicates a good start for me : )
Guess I'm not going to write any to-do list for the year of 2009
as I don't normally do that
(even if I do, I wonder whether I'd remember and follow up : P)
But I did think about how my life should be, can be, and will be after I graduate at May..
Hmmm.. I'll try to do a rough plan
And.. the above is the London eye fireworks on New Year's day 2009
I never knew that the Big Ben has been there for 150 years!!
It's celebrating its 150th birthday this year..!!
Like it quite much, more than the London Eye at least, especially when there was firework display (the beginning few seconds part, with the clock's chimming, awesome!)
although I feel those firework displays at the cities all around the world were really kind of polluting =/
Anyway, all the best for everyone this year

If I'm granted a wish, I'd hope for health, for everyone whom I love and who loves me, and myself

The Memorables

... in the year of 2008

1 Dublin Trip - 19th-22nd March
Bpeng, Peiman, Jocelyn, Ruby and me went to Dublin, Ireland during our Easter break.
A relaxing and comfortable sight seeing trip with nice friends.
Although my wallet was stolen by a @#$%^& Italian guy on last day. (爱尔兰之旅 - 小偷篇)

2 End of my Voluntary Work - 13th March
Started my voluntary work for the University Student Union Next Step Kids after school social club from 1st of November in 2007
A great and useful experience for me
A good way of getting to know local people and learn more about their cultures
It's taken many of my first time in the UK (e.g. bowling, playing basketball)

3 Final Exam of my 2nd year - 6th-15th May
Having 5 exam and had been doing revision like no life..
(I just need to mention something academically.. but I have nothing much to say about it)

4 My 21st Birthday!! - 17th June
Celebrating it at home.
Being at home itself could make me feel more than happy : )

5 Redang Trip - 18th-20th June
Went to Redang for the first time with my high school friends - Bpeng, KokChin, Neo, WaiSiang, Zhanyi, WinWin, JingLeek
It's just good to be with good old friends...

6 Langkawi Trip - 15th-17th July
Papa, Mama, Erge, 2nd bro's Gf, Ahjeh, me
Guess it's the only family trip in my memory, although gogo was still in Sabah that time
Enjoyed it very much, relaxing..
It's just damn syok.. to be with family : )
Saw penguins for the first time in the Underwater World

7 Vietnam Trip - 26th-30th July
Pama have been doing lots of travelling since their retirement
This is the only one I was involved..
Had learnt lots of their culture and experience different things..
Love to travel with parents, you just wouldn't have to worry about anything,
bring your body and heart, the rest, mama will worry about it! : P

8 Best Summer in Malaysia - 12th June- 6th Sept.
Gatherings with high school friends, ELS friends, prefects, KMT friends, and some random friends..
Being companion of pama going everywhere and anywhere,
and they were with me while buying stuff and preparing to come to the UK
Learnt that there are friends who are always best friends of yours, no matter how long you guys don't meet each other


9 International Student Welcome Event - 10th-12th Sept.
Flied back to the UK early to be one of the helpers in the welcome event
I was incharged picking up those new comers in both train and coach stations (and lucky enough to pick most of the new Malaysians)
Great to work with other international students like Rita (Hungary), Mateus (Poland), Olga (Poland), Naina (Germany), Sharon (China), etc etc
Thanks to Cathy Green for giving such a opportunity


10 Beginning of the final year of my degree - 22nd Sept.
Incredibly, it's now my final year and I've to do dissertation apart from those conventional assignments and exams..

11 Back to work in Primark - 4th Oct.
The place that I've been working for 2 years
Most of the nice colleagues left unfortunately : (

12 Started my new blog - 17th Oct.
Moved my blog from Window Live Spaces to here.

13 Parties, Parties & Parties

Karthik's 21st birthday - 10th Oct.

Halloween's party- 31st Oct.

Jeffrey's 21st birthday- 1st Nov.

Angeline's birthday at Nando's- 23rd Nov.

Kian's 21st birthday- 2nd Dec.

Winter solstice- having tangyuan at Sammi's house - 22nd Dec

Christmas Dinner - 24th Dec.

and more nice and friendship building gatherings ...

14 Austria Skiing Trip - 13th-20th Dec.
Bpeng, Jeffrey, Kian, Jocelyn, Shinyee
First time of skiing and playing with lots snow, great views and experience..
One of the most wonderful and enjoyable trip..


Here comes to the end of the year 2008
and.. Happy New Year 2009!!!
May everyone has a healthy and blessed year : )