moody

feel like crying again, dont know what happened these days, but i feel i'm depressed, and miss home very much, last week when that backache got really serious i cried for hours.. i thought i was fine. but i merely seemed ok.. yesterday night i cried to sleep.. i didnt and wouldn't want to admit this, im never like that.. but now it's very difficult.. to hear your friend crying out loud, not being able to help, it made me even depressed.. my tears came out on its own.. it reminded me few days ago when i locked the room and cried on my own, trying to lower my voice.. i couldn't figure out why, it lasts too long.. hope things go well soon, hope the girls in the house will all be fine soon..

i get back and stay strong after the tears. i hope you can make it too.

You must be Jo King!

Just saw the BBC News regarding the most unfortunate names. It did make me laugh out loud. Have a look - click here : )

Retired airman Stan Still, 76, from Cirencester, Gloucestershire, said his name had been "a blooming millstone around my neck my entire life".

"When I was in the RAF my commanding officer used to shout, 'Stan Still, get a move on' and roll about laughing," he said.

"It got hugely boring after a while."

Susan Mee, Doncaster
"My name was Susan Frame. I am a lawyer. I met and married Robert who is a banker. His surname is Mee. Now we are Sue Mee, a lawyer, and Rob Mee, a banker - ironic? I have taken no end of stick for this, believe me."


This one is so hilarious!! A family name - Mee.. Imagine a lawyer saying her name is "Sue Me" and a banker "Rob Me"... XDD

How about Curry Mee, Pan Mee, Indo Mee..

OK. I do agree that it's kind of rude to laugh at other's name.. no offence taken please.. well, me myself also have a surname that can make jokes of...

WTH.. PMS Buddy?

Guess what I've found:

PMS Buddy Saving relationships, one time at a month!

And they even have it on facebook.. PMS Buddy on Facebook -_-"
Does that mean that when your auntie's visiting they'll give you (or your bf, or whoever use it) a notification? If so, the whole friends network is going to know when your auntie's visiting lor? - then they can write on your wall sending regards etc etc.. OK, perhaps I think too much, perhaps it doesnt work at all.. :D

Isn't that ridiculous? I mean, is it that serious? I know la, perhaps those stuff are set up for some kind of "Just For Fun" purposes, but I do think people may take it quite seriously..

And, ya lar, recent years I started to feel that they do affect my mood, I can get moody and very low without very apparent reasons, and I'm glad there's something to blame, i.e. the hormone. But I guess it's not everyone who get affected (right?). at least previously I wasn't and sometimes I'm not. Whereas for many people, they are like in PMS all the time - very irritable and impetuous all the time.. this includes some guys..

This reminds me our geography teacher (Ms. 翁明娇) during high school.. ahahahaha.. She used to be a good teacher and she teached really well I'd say, but the latter few years she became really impatient and @#$%^&*... Then a few guys in our class "spotted" her PMS quite accurately.. ahahahaha.. good old memory.

Anyway, perhaps somebody try the site or application, then tell us whether it's useful la k? :D

:'(

my back is seriously uncomfortable,
wondering whether it's the bend of the backbone has got more serious
can't stand the feeling..

miss home very much..

Tuesday Blue

Haih.. I don't know what's wrong with me today, had been so low and moody, not even chocolate can cheer me up. Then all day long, apart from attending class in the morning and talking with mama, I did literally nothing! Supposed to start a bit reading for Thinking and Reasoning research, but.. haih.. What's wrong What's wrong? Menopause perhaps? Ahahaha.. crazy, I'm not even 22 okk. And, don't know why whenever it's assignment peak season or exam period, I'll definitely get addicted to at least one game -whatever it is. This time is at Viwawa, a game called Bridge (guess it's one of the most addicting games for me, it's different from some previous ones because I call it an intellectual game.. ha).

Then just now discussed Marv's birthday with they all, even kek sim.. I wonder whether people actually step into other's shoe and think for other.. And the conference can surround the same question for ages. I don't know why I was so irritable also.. hmm.. But they all are really quite cincai.. If I were Marv I'd be probably disappointed by us, especially it's his 21st.. Anyway, I'm not the so-called "bro" or "good friend" or whatever.. I do my best..

Something made me feel better is the conversation with mum, basically most of the times we're discussing similar topics, like their attendance to my convo this end of year, when erge's going to marry, how busy ahjeh is and how free gogo is, my weight (XD), job hunting after final, how bad the economic is, papa's knee recovery, or what happen to those 3 gu 6 poh. The delighting point is they will most probably be coming to see me and for my convo, and my sis may come with them.. well, may.. Oh whose parents are also coming? We can form an old folks group.. XD

OK. Finally, if you did notice, I said "had been so low and moody", because just now I read Felicia's fwd email ("OMFG our Miss Pageant Malaysia).. and.. really LMAO.. Please let me know if you'd like to see, for.. god sake I'm not going to forward them to everyone, feel so sorry for the girls.. but it will probably cheer you up .. : D

But still, I'm not motivated to start my assignment.. no mood.. no mood.. no mood..

P.S. When I saw the "Blue" (title there) in green, Stroop effect came to my mind.. -_-"

Happy Valentine's Day

A New Life

I had been thinking to get something alive in my room for quite a long time, (it'd be great if it can be a dog!!) until the beginning of December last year, I've got a little "bulb" from WoolWorth when it was going to close down. Guess this is not the first time I grow a plant, (for sure, most people grow something like mung bean or water chestnut during primary school, right?) but it still excites me quite much.. especially when its grow has become so obvious day by day..!!

This is its box, a white hyacinth, originally I planned to get a blue purple one, but I thought I was going to Austria skiing trip that time and I wouldn't be able to take good care of it (in fact it doesn't really require any care..), so being stupid I didn't buy it when I first saw it in the shop. Later I realized that it was actually going to close down, and I can actually get it first, while start growing it later.. Unfortunately, few days later when I went again, there were only plenty of white left! :( :( - Anyway I do love white colour very much.. it's just the blue purple look great on it.

If you don't know what a hyacinth is, it's 风信子, sounds any familiar? Thanks to Chorpeng, because I didn't know that as well, but when I told him I bought a bawang for £3, immediately he asked whether it is 风信子.. geng ley..! OK, not going to grumble too much.. This post is dedicated to my little hyacinth - its growing process, and I'll be updating it often until it's really a grown up.. (eh, that's not a human la..)

2008.12.23 The beginning.. this was how it looked like.. a bawang, right? (Bear with me the quality of the pic, I don't understand why on earth I took a pic without focus..)

2008.12.29 About one week later.. I could finally see "something" there.. (Eh? is there a difference?)

2009.01.19 I checked it nearly daily I think, and about three weeks later, it had just made this BIT difference..

Same day, perhaps there wasn't much difference "up there", but its roots grew damn fast..

2009.01.22 it speeds up a bit, I can see its grow

2009.01.30 When I showed it to Bee Peng, she said probably by the time we graduate the flower will be there.. lol

2009.02.06 Miracle of life..

2009.02.09 It's growing very much faster now..

2009.02.10 I can see the flower.. Can you???

2009.02.11 They came out the next day.. :) :)

2009.02.12 Finally.. (notice the dates, it started growing fast fairly recently..)

Same day, another view.. I can see that it will be very pretty.. hahaha.. What do you think?

End of CNY

15天就这样快过去了耶 还真的有点快
想想其实华人也蛮夸张的吧.. 一年只有那么12个月
其中的半个月竟然都在过年耶
换句话说 如果你活60岁, 其中的2.5年在过年!!

其实虽然嘴巴说快 但是大部分时候都还是希望它快点过
之一是因为在新年其间你总是可以给自己很多借口不做该做的事
之二呢 是每每想到是新年却又没有新年气氛也不像在过 心里就蛮郁闷的吧
所以 还是过了好...

元宵节啊 不知道会不会有聚会吃饺子
stephy & peiman说"吃脚趾", 傻的咯.. 干嘛吃脚趾 XD
最近聚会有点频密 开始觉得就算聚会大家也是小组聊天 有点... 没意思了吧
(但是当然 聚会还是要的啦..!!)
刚好5天后就是214 情人节
Selina 说 "最后冲刺啊!!" 哈哈..猜她冲刺什么...?
找男朋友.. 她说要在星期六前找到男朋友过情人节
她那个"最后冲刺"的语气.. 超好笑.. : D

好呗 其实没什么要写了 很累很想睡了..
新年的最后一天... 祝大家 元宵节快乐~
希望接下来可以专心好好做 assignments & diss 吧..

Snow Snow Snow

For the first time in a few decades.. there were heavy snow in Cheltenham!!
(and many regions in the UK) (2nd Feb)

The view from my room. It's a primary school. (5th Feb)
Those kids are the ones who normally wake me up in the morning.. Haha..

A pretty snowlady by Bee Peng and me..
hmm OK la Felicia did contribute a bit.. (5th Feb)

Snow fight + Snowman making in Hardwick campus today.. Peiman and Stephy not in the pic..(6th Feb)

Would you really love snow if you live in a city that snow throughout the winter?

More Pictures

I don't think I would.. they are damnnn dirty and geli!
and in fact snow brings people so much inconvenience..
(e.g. class being cancelled, public transportation not working, cars being stuck in snow, heating bills going up, bruise after snow fight -_-")
But occasionally playing snow can create so much fun!! : D
Anyway, I hope this is the last heavy snowing day..
because the snow has been sooo distracting..
it ruined my plan of doing assignments every day! :( :(
I just can't help playing them, because we really haven't got much opportunity like this!!

Snow Castle..! Never knew snow can be used like sand, I want to try!! -Taken from BBC News

Is Britain going bankrupt?

As most of my friends know, I normally read SinChew news and BBC (not daily but nearly). Yet never did I come across any news regarding whether or not the Britain is going bankrupt. And guess when I first got this news? It was from my parents -_-" Yea la my dad is like "digesting" the newspaper every day, but I thought this is "nearer" and more related to me, why never I came across it? Just saw the news regarding the we-think-wonderful-yet-destructive snow has cost the government more than 1 thousand million pounds.. and if it (the wonderful snow) gets "further", more than 3000 companies may close down. Haih.. I feel a bit sorry I've been expecting snow (yes, have been, it's still going on..), will share the photos I take these days next time, in a delightful post. Those are some articles I googled and think some may interest you..

"Obama is talented but he is not a magician. Instead, Gordon Brown's nightmare, in which we are all trapped, is going to get much worse."

Iain Martin: Gordon Brown brings Britain to the edge of bankruptcy

“We’ve been in a much worse position than we are today.
“People are getting unbelievably gloomy, but I have been around long enough to remember the 70s when we had to have the IMF [International Monetary Fund bail-out], we had a three-day working week, we had candles in rooms and we couldn’t get home by train.
“We are not going to have that.”

Andrew Dodge: UK going bankrupt?

Bitch War

Note: Just a grumbling post written yesterday.

Yesterday seems to be the worst working day since I started working here two years ago. Don't know why they made things sooo complicated. This morning the supervisor Jess scolded Emily and Jess II, later when we were all working in fitting room, I asked them what just happened -- basically just a topic la. After done, Jess asked me to give her a hand, and somehow secretly, she asked me whether Emily said anything about her to me. I was kind of shocked and just smiled, then said she didn't really say anything (a very silly lie, obviously everyone complains after they get scolded, right?) but said I did ask her what she talked to them. Then, she asked "Would you tell what they said or you don't want to tell?" Tell me, if you were me what will you answer her? Why on earth would she expect me that I'm her "gang" and I'll betray those that working hard with me? They are very new, I forgive them and give chances, but I never want to be involved in those British bitch war, I want George back! Everyone on our floor wants him back.. The sentence that I heard the most after she's become supervisor - "I'm very disappointed" So what? I'm also very disappointed and I hate working with you!! Those words make really low morale. I know they know me and they do appreciate me, sometimes after they scold everyone, they will "secretly" come to me and say those words weren't meant to say me. But that doesn't help.. and it will never help. I wonder why there are so many bitches here and why they all don't like each other, at the same time, they call each other bitch! lmao

I guess despite my age of 21+ age, I'm still no good in getting along well with people. I just make mistakes and wrong judgments all the time. Was it due to the way of avoidance? Now I'm thinking to get myself out from first floor... But there is no point of having we all leaving but them staying, we had been working really happily before they came. Why would the management blame us when there are problems? Steve met me in Tesco that day and tricked me, he even said that "we have been working together for two years you should know my voice" Right, so now does he know me well then? Ok perhaps he does, but how about the rest of the colleagues? Didn't he realize we had been all fine until Jess and Becky lead us?

It is just so happening. I feel being used. No, I was in fact being used. Perhaps most of the time when I feel sad it isn't really about me, but ... I want to stop myself from being involved, especially when people gossip.. because it makes me bias and can't judge things and people justly, but apparently I fail most of the time.. ha. It's kind of surprising.. because I still care, after all this way of brain washing. This is a sequel to the post Disgusted. ridiculous, when I reread, I realized those words still apply! It's simply a complicated world. It's fine sometimes when you scheme, but not intrigue, especially towards those that you call good friends.