The Recent Me

I wonder whether any reader noticed.. that I'd never updated my recent life and future plan in my blog after final exam.. This is probably one of the most anaswered questions at this stage of my life.. Yet I never felt like writing about it. The reason is rather simple, because I have no idea about my life, my further study or career life.. I'm like lost..

I just checked the student record online today.. and Yes, I've got a first class degree.. It seems to be a bit late to tell as most who care knew it already lol. For my past study life, I'd never ask other's results.. never tell anyone unless I was asked.. as I don't like the way people look at me, as if I was showing off.. But, like what I told PeiMan that day when result came out, I want to share my happiness, I hope my friends (and family) feel happy for me.. OK, so what's this first class for/about? Before even I came to UK and started my degree, Ms Tan (Sook Bee, from E-West) told us that getting a first can let you to go for PhD directly.. So I could see the "value" of getting a first, rather than just... hmmm "oh first? that was really good!" (Dav's reaction when he asked me today.. lol). I thought this was true.. but it's just half true. I emailed a uni staff that deals with those postgrad study, he said that actually a first can let me go for MPhil, which there is possibility to upgrade to PhD.. Hey! this is very different right?

Actually, I don't really care, although I could see the value, but as I said, I love studying, I don't mind spending more time more effort and go for usual route.. But somehow.. this is still.. @#$%^&* la.. right??? (Although I'm aware that my house now got 4 bachelors 1 mba, if there were to be someone who get phd, that's probably me? HAHAHA =P)

So I'm still rather confused.. I think I mentioned before, that I feel like working, I want to work! I need more more more experience, rather than just research theory research theory (I do love research).. and ah well, I feel it's time to stop studying temporarily.. and learn to live a different life.. So ideally, my plan is to work for a couple of years, then study further.. yes, ideally. Else, I should be working and pursuing my master or whatever at the same time... hmm.. I dont know. The thing is also, I haven't even got a job, a proper one I mean (I must leave primark asap, except Ben, most of my best colleague friends left =( ). And I feel guilty as I found some friends actually seek for job when I was still slacking and enjoying life after exam.. = =.

Apart from these issues, our student visa expires at the end of Oct. So if I'm going to stay here, I should be applying Tier-1 around July/August.. (will probably going to live without passport for 4-8 weeks = =). So it's also important to decide whether to study or to work, since the tier-1 is just once for each life.. Then, the place of studying/working is also very important... because our house rental contract actually ends on 10th July = = (2 weeks later), although I did tell the landlord that I might be staying till August... etc etc.. there are so many things.. to be considered..

I can't get motivated, to plan for my future.. rather ridiculous, isn't it? So.. hmm.. I don't know how to end this post now, but if it happpens that you do read current long and wordy post, let me know your opinions ok? Perhaps it's not a decision, perhaps at this situation, it's not my decision that matters, but "que sera sera" (whatever will be, will be)...? I mean.. perhaps not even myself can decide what I want to do.. (although I can try)?

If I were a boy

I cant remember when and from where was the first time I heard this song..
but when I heard it again today, I can sing most part of the lyrics with no problem.. = =
maybe somebody share in their blogs or something...?

What do you think about the song?
the lyrics is just so so.. yet kind of interesting..
the thing is, when you get to be a girl first before being a guy, you could probably learn to love a girl much better than you're a guy "from the initial till the end", is this right?
But like what the guy sang,

But you are not a boy,
so you can't understand
You are not a perfect woman
and I am not a perfect man

Things wouldn't be that perfect. So you wouldn't get the opportunity to TRY to be girl/guy first before being another..
So.. hmmm.. right, there's no perfect woman and man..
Perhaps there are loads stuff that men can do while women cant (are there?? I doubt..?!) and vice versa.. But if I get to choose again.. I would still be a girl.. HAHAHA.. why? no idea.. being a girl is simply good! =P

Presents

My 22nd birthday presents..

The birthday card.. See the plaster? It's also part of the present.. LOL
coz they said I fall down often (during other's birthday.., while in fact it was just K's birthday, wasn't it?)

Thank you guys. ((=
and sorry I lost the wrap that you guys spent time drawing = =
I like that too..

HAHAHA.. I love this. But I don't know when I'm going to wear it. =P
From Joce, Ruby, K, WaiLeng, Marv, Shinyee, PehLing, YangWoo.. (am not too sure how the list goes..)

I received this from Sammi & Stephy more than a month ago.
Lovely, thank you (=
they said they wanted to make me more girlly... =D
it looks like a little bomb..

My new watch!!! in white!
why is it soooo nice? I chose one ma..=P
from Bpeng, PeiMan & Felicia.. thank youuu!!

Hmmm.. the rest.. remains secret.. XD
I think I've got so much more than I deserve in the beginning of my 22..
(opppss.. hmm.. 22, sounds so old..=S)

The 22th Birthday

Skype with family

Mum, sis and bro skype me at 11+pm.. Hehehe.. can't believe nowadays mama also sleeps so late edy... although I get quite annoyed because they actually discussing what cake they want to buy to celebrate MY birthday WITHOUT ME... but still feel happy la.. think this is 2nd birthday i'm not celebrating at home? Also, now only I know that my chiense birthday passed already! (on Sunday the 14th >"<)

Egg Dinner with Housemates

Thanks to my sweeeeetest housemates (Bpeng, PuiMan & Felicia) for the dinner. Although obviously it can't be compared to those I had during my past birthdays at home, but it's still sweeet and nice. Why is it called the Egg dinner..? Because.. errrr.. I kind of love eggs, and thus for the dinner, 4 persons had 12 eggs! LOL

MidNight birthday 'surprise'

Frankly speaking I wasn't expecting it, I thought there are now so few of us here in the uk, I thought even if there was a midnight surprise I should deserve a slightly warmer and nicer one.. Until when we were having dinner, Fel mentioned "Ohh.. then we can use it tonight hor.." That reminded me all those lovely birthday attacks. Then at around 11pm, when i was enjoying movie in my room, somebody sticked a note on my wall

You know, this is soooo "helpless", you know what you're going for, you know what's waiting for you out there.. and you can't pretend like you're tired have to sleep yet you MUST go (?)! Fel wanted to blindfold me.. and for sure rejected by me.. then when we were walking a lil bit further in my house garden.. I saw group of them edy.. Haihhhh.. Haihhhh... then i turned from a clean and ready-to-sleep look, to... @#$%^&* with flour powder water cream.. Next was a birthday song, a wish that I can't remember what I've made, blowing candle.. THEN, I've got more cream as they said I still looking too clean.. zzzzz...

(photo taken from Jocelyn's blog)

and you know, actually I was not even interested in attacking back (since having so much previous experience, I'm not liking having bath at 12-1am.. so I wouldn't want to do that to them).. But YERRR.. they all.. so evil.. =SS Yet funny la, especially Shinyee and Jocelyn.. omg, I still can't help laughing the way Jocelyn ran and.. lolll. Ok, this sweet surprise thing spoilt 2 things - my flipflop, and my LG phone (again! *later found it seems to be working again).................

Different time zone wishes

Like celebrating the new year 2009, I'd also got my birthday celebrated in different time zones.. from friends in Aus, M'sia for sure, then Russia, Poland, UK and finally US.. ahahhaa.. kind of interesting.. ((=

Anyway thanks to everyone, I mean, everyone, and extra credits to Bee Peng (forgot this on my speech). Thanks for the effort and time, the party and food, the cream and flour, the presents (!!!), the calls from farrr away, the sms, messages on facebook and msn etc etc.. THANK YOU! I've made my wish for you.. heee..

[to be continue... maybe]

P.S. This is also the 100th post of my blog.