Thursday, May 28, 2009

='(

Can't believe they both are leaving us tomorrow..
or ehmm.. 12 hours later =(
Really feel quite ... ... Hope I won't be tearing la..

Sammi de de

Stephy de de

Guess what we're doing..?

Hehehe.. I'll remember the smell


All the best and have a safe trip..

I wish we could have become so close during the first year we knew each other
I wish I could judge people better so that I know these girls are such great friends that shouldn't be missed
I wish they would be staying here with us...

I miss you even before you guys leave *sigh*

Monday, May 25, 2009

Fun Fair @ Cheltenham

I'm really tired, but glad that I went to the fun fair today (with Sammi, Stephy, Peiman, Felicia, Jocelyn, Marvin and Allyson)!
It's not as bad as the one we went last month, this could be considered as massive I guess..
And the funniest thing is Felicia, Jocelyn, Allyson and I actually tried a crazy spinning ride..
trust me, it's the craziest I'd experienced so far, for a person who craze for exciting advanced games like me, it still is!! (will probably upload an video, to provide a rough idea: basically all stand in a round platform and it spins and turns in every possible dimensions)
I was so glad that there's someone that could play with me.. thank you thank you!

Frankly speaking, it hurts. The safety notice there says people who have back problems shouldn't try it.. ahahaha.. but I ignored it despite having seen it.
And! Just now when I changed clothes, I found both of my shoulders "crawling" with red lines.. (ask bpeng or peiman, I showed them)
dont know how I made them actually.. >"<

Anyway, it's finally a FUN fair. The firework wasn't bad too.. worth that pound la..
just that, after working 2 whole days, and walked myself there.. my legs aren't mine anymore =S
what more, I'm working tomorrow...

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Found!!

Saw this when I was on my way to work yesterday morning..


Really really glad to see this..
May god bless Kian and his family
Hmmm.. a single case may seem a bit insignificant to most people, but if whoever able to help do so, it will definitely make a significant difference

More details:

BBC:
Donor found for rare disease boy

Previous posts:
Bone Marrow Donating Session
Donating Bone Marrow

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Attending a wedding

The first ever time I attend a marriage registration and it happened to be kind of a different one.

Firstly, I attended it in the UK (in Chichester, where the groom's mum stays), with Bee Peng, Sammi and Stephy.

Secondly, they are couple of a British and a Malaysian

Thirdly, there are already two (super cute) kids when the wedding was held.

On 16th morning, going to the registration office. From left, Stephy, KimFoong, Sammi, me, Nanny and Oswyn, front row: Oscar.

The bride and the groom during the registration. I like this pic! KimFoong looked so 含情脉脉.. =D

Best wishes to YOU!

Huibee and Oscar, KimFoong and William's eldest son. He is DAMN CUTE!! and smart as well, he can speak mandarin to mummy, e.g. "妈妈是猪猪 (mummy is piggy)", or speak English to daddy, e.g. "Daddy is naughty boy"... LOL

They followed and had the chinese tradition (don't know what it's called) in William's mum's house as well.

5 of us. in Arundel castle. Nice trip with Sammee and Stepeeee..

P.S. there are loads pic on facebook and some videos will (hopefully) be uploaded soon (:

Thursday, May 07, 2009

ahahahaha...

Today! brings all the exam and stress to the end, this morning I've completed my degree unofficially!

As I mentioned in previous post, my exam today is on 9.15am, which means we would need to take the 8am bus to the park campus. And!! I was so careless and thought that the bus was 8.10am instead of 8am!! (it's normally on 10 past of every hour, but the first one is somehow different >"<) Luckily Bpeng reminded me and we 2 ran to the bus stop.. phewww luckily we still managed to catch the bus but could hardly breath.. Then, did a bit revision before the exam and went in like usual.. This very final exam brought me a somehow different experience, because I requested to go to toilet when I finished the first 3 questions (4 short essay Q in total). Nothing special la.. 11.15am sharp, I completed the final paper of my degree! Would like to make an Official Thanks to..

HsiangYek
CK Cheng
WeiShan
Sammi
Stephy
Jocelyn
Ruby
Jeffrey
Safia
Naina
Nick (YongKang)
LiJi
Evonne
LiWei
YongHan
Brian
Alice See
Cathy
Ariel
Jun Yi (He said he wanted to wish me but never saw me online)
Marcus
YingLing
Jancie
MingNi
Justin
+ those who wished me on FB

Hope I didnt miss anyone out. Some of them are really damn nice and sweet! purposely text or sent me offline message on msn (coz I seldom sign in msn recently). And of course my family, although they dont normally give any physical support but they are always the ones that motivate me and keep me moving on. Hmm.. They made me feel I'm blessed throughout the exam, although this doesn't mean I'd score well.. but at least I'm happy with the questions come out and my way of answering them la.. I tried my best! (except PY316 though) the rest, leave it to the markers.. (=

BTW, I feel sooo empty now. It's like nothing to focus in life now. This probably explained why I wasn't excited as I expected. Yesterday when I was doing the final bits of the revision, I already started to feel that I'm going to miss STUDYING very much.. Anyway, not to say too much of those, because Bpeng, PeiMan, Sammi, Jocelyn, Ruby, ShinYee, WaiLeng and Marvin havent finished theirs yet! Best of luck to them!!

For fun: My surname. LOL. Took the pic after exam. (It means exam PY310, surname Adlam to Teh, alphabetically)

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

In 36 hours

I can't wait anymore..!! this is such a long torture
even friends start saying i've been saying im in exam period for long.. (although it's just 1+ week)
not really motivated to study anymore and those stuff just refuse to get into my brain.. stubborn than me!!

2 papers left:
Thinking and reasoning exam on 5.15pm tomorrow, which is the one I've decided to give up on..
while another clinical psy exam is at 9.15am on Thursday..
not very happy with this arrangement, there's just so little time in between, would rather have them in the same day.. =/
Anyway, will be the end of the final paper of final exam in final semester in less than 36 hours...
wonder whether I'll be too excited on thursday till can't write properly.. >"<

Best of luck to everyone.. (=

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Donating Bone Marrow

Today!! is the day that we're supposed to come to save Kian (to know more about it see my previous post- Bone Marrow Donor Session). Originally I felt like not coming because I've been slacking after my first paper, but.. dont know why, the feeling of i might be the one who save him, or somebody else, was so strong that made me made up my mind to come at last, with Bee Peng (the rest all become very ignorant during exam despite saying that got karma one if you come to test >"<)

Surprisingly we saw loads of people when we arrived in the SU bar in park campus. A guy gave us one booklet and a medical application form, asking us to read pg. 4-8 before filling in the form. OK, so next we sit down comfortably and started reading.. right on the first page that we read regarding the donor criteria for joining..

be aged between 18-40 *tick*

be in excellent health *errr.. yes gua*

weigh at least 51kg *wow bpeng!! luckily I gained weight!! otherwise I couldn't donate!! first time feel so good for gaining weight!*

reside in the UK (for the next three years min) *oh no!! we're not sure yet*

bla bla bla... several other criteria which I think we fulfill.. (see picture)

So, being curious whether a carrier of thalassemia gene can donate bone marrow or not.. I approached a lady and wrote down the "disease". She said she doesnt even know what it is but she brought the booklet up and asked somebody else.. When she came back

"Are you a carrier or you actually suffer from it?" (errr.. if i actually suffer from it i should have died i guess >"<)

"I'm just a carrier of it =)"

"OK, it should be fine, but it may limit the way you can donate it" (pointing to 1 of the pages showing different ways of donating bone marrow)

"just discuss it with somebody else later.. it should be fine"

OK. I assume that I'm now an eligible donor. Next thing is the 3 years period problem - that guy said if we can't be sure that we 'll be here for 3 years, the answer is NO =/ (for apparent reason if we're needed we will need to travel here and stay for quite a few weeks.. it seems that we can't make this commitment yet)

So... I'm now blogging in park campus.. instead of giving blood sample.. feel a bit jealous seeing some people having the test up there. Actually in the application form, there's also criteria like "I am not on any other bone marrow / stem cell register in the UK or worldwide" which reminds me that probably we should register in malaysia rather than here in the UK..

Although a bit disappointed not being able to donate, guess we can still register it somewhere else in the future and help somebody else (for their trust, one in 1000 is selected as a match for a patient each year). At least I know that carriers of thalassemia are able to donate.

P.S. Post was written in park campus on 29th 7pm

Countdown to freedom: 7 days!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Prosopagnosia

Do you think you have problem in recognizing human face?

I wonder anyone is like me, that when I first came here, I found most Whites have similar faces. It's kind of embarassing that sometimes when I'm working, I help a customer to look for size option in the stockroom while she's waiting in the shop floor, normally when I come back, I don't really remember which is the one that ask for my help (especially when there are lots customers)! I assumed this as usual (since we seldom see faces of different races ma), and thought that I'd get used to them soon and would be able to differenciate them well. But until recent, things like that still happen!! I've been here for 3 years.. That day when I came back from stockroom and wondered who that was, I asked my manager directly.. she and a colleague of mine kept laughing at me after that.. so did the customer, because she heard me asking.. >"<

Is there anyone out there that have similar situation??

Why would I talk about this suddenly..? Because one of the topic that I revised for exam PY313 (Cognitive neuropsychology) is about Prosopagnosia, also known as face blindness, which is a selective inability to recognize or differentiate among faces (something like that la, finished this paper I can't remember edy =P).


Then, when I was doing a bit research about it yesterday, I found that it's not just simply wide variation under this diagnosis, but there are mild cases in which, it may be affecting 10% of the population!!!! ok, you may not be able to realize this in general life, as most people are those that familiar to you, while there's no point of remembering strangers'. BUT, one common "symptom" is the inability to keep track the identity of characters in movies!!

KNS.. I really have this problem.. Still remember when I went to watch The Dark Knight (Batman 3) in cinema last year, I couldn't differenciate between the batman (of course when he was in his casual look la - Wayne) and Dent, until my friend told me that they have different hair colour.. so THROUGHTOUT THE MOVIE, I used their hair colour as the cue to differentiate who is who.... super zzzz right?!!?!

OK. Basically it's not a big problem (neither is it very disabling), as I can recognize familiar faces, no matter what ethnicity they are, really well. But.. I'm just trying to look for anyone like me.. please.. (well, if it's really 10%, then 1 of 10 of my blog readers should be like me right?)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

What my name means

You entered: Teh Hui Bee

There are 9 letters in your name.
Those 9 letters total to 47
There are 5 vowels and 4 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 11

The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.

The expression or destiny for #11:
Your Expression number is 11. The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.

The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.

The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 2

An Inner Dream number of 2 means:
You dream of close and meaningful relationships, cooperation with those around you; family and friends. You want to be a peacemaker and mediator. You present an image that you are a very pliable and easygoing person who would be very easy to get along with.



Those in yellow tend to be what I agree with, Or, what suprised me yet I still more incline to agree with. Whereas those in red are what I strongly disagree with.. (e.g. I'm obviously not an easygoing person lorrr.. XD)

What do you think?

In general I think I'm quite a practical person, not really a dreamer (wth it says I'm a dreamer more than a doer, I didn't say I disagree, but I will spend some time analyzing whether it's true! lol). I still agree with "you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents." although having to say that I'm a more down to earth person. BUT the thing is I'm shifting my mind.. I mean changing, because at this period of time, I'm going to graduate, and I recognize the importance of......... you know, some realistic stuff (e.g. financial issue if you don't get a job - ahh and it says I'm a natural excellent teacher, philosopher, social worker or advisor - So I should work towards this direction huh?).

Anyway, This is such a long and wordy post that I doubt whether anyone would really read it by heart?! Perhaps you'd be more interested in getting to know what your name means? (click here) And.. I don't really... agree with those kind of analysis, this is why I seldom do any test (I'm still wondering it's just a name that my dad gave me in translation from hokkien to english, does that mean that much?? - most of the time I wonder when I see people doing any form of non-academic test) I still do this one and share it on my blog,.. because it seems pro

Thanks ChungVi (my primary school mate), got this from his blog (=
saw his analysis includes "have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals" and I'm so jealous! because I think I'm yet it doesnt appear on mine =(

P.S. in approximately 12 hours I'll be sitting for my 1st paper, why am I blogging here?

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Random

刚刚因为不想读书而无聊去看facebook一自己的照片
看到一些滑雪的照片.. (Austria Skiing Trip)
突然很想念滑雪 很想念那趟旅行 很想念那些像仙境般的风景..


突然.. 有一点舍不得在这里的朋友 大部分都要毕业也准备回去了...

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Facebook & Lower Grades

College students who use Facebook spend less time studying and have lower grade point averages than students who have not signed up for the social networking website, according to a pilot study at one university.

However, more than three-quarters of Facebook users claimed that their use of the social networking site didn’t interfere with their studies.

We can’t say that use of Facebook leads to lower grades and less studying – but we did find a relationship there,” said Aryn Karpinski, co-author of the study and a doctoral student in education at Ohio State University.

“There’s a disconnect between students’ claim that Facebook use doesn’t impact their studies, and our finding showing they had lower grades and spent less time studying.”

While this was a relatively small, exploratory study, it is one of the first to find a relationship between college students’ use of Facebook and their academic achievement.

Typically, Facebook users in the study had GPAs between 3.0 and 3.5, while non-users had GPAs between 3.5 and 4.0.

In addition, users said they averaged one to five hours a week studying, while non-users studied 11 to 15 hours per week.

"There may be other factors involved, such as personality traits, that link Facebook use and lower grades,” she said. “It may be that if it wasn’t for Facebook, some students would still find other ways to avoid studying, and would still get lower grades. But perhaps the lower GPAs could actually be because students are spending too much time socializing online."

To read more



What do you think?

I found myself spend relatively less time on Facebook nowadays due to its new layout (especially not happy with the fixed selections of published news, get annoyed that people keep doing tests and publishing them). But I used to spend lots time playing some games (some applications like "Who has the biggest brain?" "GeoChallenge" or "Friendsforsale" that sort of thing) or commenting on photos. Hmmm.. I do agree that it could be a distraction, but would it be affecting people's grades in college?

Anyway, it's important to note that they merely found a relationship, especially there could be many confounding factors underlie the relationship, such as personality traits as mentioned. There are also people who found facebook improved their grade as it helped them to make course related contacts. So perhaps it just depends.. And if we were to compare, I guess the advantages may outrange the disadvantages..

Students ma, even if there is no such thing as facebook on earth, there will always be something else to distract US from study.. LOL (such as blogging? why dont they investigate the relationship between regular blogging and college grade? ahahah..)

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Bone Marrow Donor Session

Young mother, Gemma Isaacs, is urgently calling for people to come forward and potentially help save her two year old son’s life. Little Kian suffers from an extremely rare genetic disorder — PNP Deficiency — and desperately needs to find a bone marrow donor in order to survive.

Gemma, from Wyman’s Brook in Cheltenham, is urging everyone aged 18-40 years old to join the Anthony Nolan Trust’s bone marrow register on Wednesday 29th April from 4 — 7pm at the Park Student Union, University of Gloucestershire.

There are currently 16,000 people worldwide in need of a bone marrow transplant, but because individual genetic makeup is so varied, the chance of finding a suitable donor can be slim. Many searches for patients are unsuccessful — a bone marrow donor whose tissue type matches theirs could mean the difference between life and death.

Kian’s condition - PNP Deficiency - is a genetic disorder caused by a lack of Purine Nuceloside Phosphorylase enzyme, which leaves the patient vulnerable to a variety of potentially fatal infections. People with the condition can also suffer brain damage.

His mother Gemma said: “Without a bone marrow transplant, Kian’s prognosis is bleak. It’s very rare for a child with this condition to live beyond 10. But with a bone marrow transplant, Kian will have a normal life span, although he will still have developmental problems. Please please come forward and join the register. I ask you to put yourself in our situation — imagine if it was your child, or a member of your family, what would you do? I really hope we find someone who will be able to help save Kian’s life. We’re desperate.”

The blood sample taken at the registration clinic is tested to establish the tissue type and the results stored on the charity’s confidential database. As a new member of the register the donor receives a registration card and written confirmation of being a potential life saver. A donor may be found to be a match for a patient almost immediately or may wait many years before being asked to donate — and in some cases may never donate at all if there is no match. Please come to the Park Student Union at the University of Gloucestershire from 4-7pm on 29th April to find out more.

Donors need to be aged 18-40. For further information regarding the clinic and joining the register, please contact The Anthony Nolan Trust on +44 20 7284 1234 or log on to www.anthonynolan.org.uk


Just saw this on our Uni website.. I feel like going to try ley.. especially the kid (named Kian!!) looks damn cute.. but that will be during exam period plus I'm a bit scared ley.. -_-" and.. and.. and my thalassemia genes.. haihh. Have been saying I want to donate blood for a very long time, but never get a chance to actually do it, of course donating bone marrow is a far bigger matter, but still, if stand on their point of view.. perhaps one day we will need other's help.. why not giving a hand when we're able to? It's like.. saving a life, A LIFE!! And it won't be just a life, it will also be a great boon to the family of the patient. And it's quite surprising.. they actually let people register, and when they find patient who match the donor then only would you need to donate.. Hmm.. dont know, it seems a bit scary.. -_-"

Anyway, hope they can find a suitable donor. God bless him.

P.S. Happy Earth Day!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Well done?

80 pages, my dissertation..
received this email last week, it made me feel wow! finally came to this stage
it's like really the end of it, have been working on it for a year!!
don't really care whether it's well done anymore, I really try my best
but actually not really finish yet, because I don't get what Kerry means by saying "you have 2 univariate tests but only report one"
I think he overlooked something when checking my result section.. but I'm not sure, since he's the pro... (anyway I still think he's the best supervisor, opps, maybe I should say one of the best?)
haih.. hate being so last-minute! otherwise I could have finished and typed all the page numbers..
I was so stressed yesterday that I felt I couldn't really breath as usual :(
but then today I spent all day indulging myself.. zzz
no more procrastinating until 7th May - I say it I mean it I will make it (:
Countdown to freedom: 16 days

Friday, April 17, 2009

Half Year

It's now half a year I blog here in huibee.blogspot.com (which is my 3rd published blog after thespoke and windows live space)
I think previously I did aim to reach 100 posts in six months and obviously - I failed, 15 more till my target :(
Blogging too less in recent few weeks
Just reread nearly all the posts this year
Kind of impressed by my passion on blogging, and my views on some sorts of thing
Guess I'm really kind of forgetful person - thus it's good to keep a blog
It reminds me about myself, my dream and helps me to see my growth and changes
Many people around me start or start again to blog, which is quite nice
as you get to know how life of your friend is through blog fairly easily
But the thing is I just realized the blogs that I'm following exceed 30 already!
they are all bro, primary and high schools friends, ELS friends, uni friends etc (still exclude those that I care yet they blog in windows live space which following here is not possible yet)
And I feel I'm not really able to read so many posts especially some (bloggaholic?) friends (e.g. Nick, Peiman) has new post daily or nearly daily..
so it ends up I just read the first few lines, if I'm interested only would I click on it
Is it good or bad huh? Or I should be more picky - dont follow so many people's?
Yet when I decided to follow every single of them, I'm pretty sure I'm interested in reading it or in knowing this particular person

Anyway, hope I would keep blogging, no matter how busy or boring life is..
and one final thing - Many thanks to those have been reading my blog and/or leaving comments for it.. They are very very much appreciated, they mean a lot to me, especially when I'm down, and they keep me carry on too (:
with real hope, i will be celebrating its 1st, 2nd, 10th.. anniversary

Thursday, April 16, 2009

417




不是我不明白 /梁静茹 & 卢广仲
曲: 林稘玉 词 : 李焯雄





Just saw friend sharing this on FB, worth sharing it too, agree?
Heard the song quite a few times, felt it was just kind of normal Fishy type love songs (except the fact that the lyrics was really well written - deep though)
but watching its MV may somehow make you feel different (:

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Passionate about...

I'm passionate about studying, yes I just said studying, just as I'm passionate about jogging, blogging, movies, snoopy, eggs etc
This was what I feel normally, sometimes when I dont study for a long time, I miss the feeling of studying, of working really hard for exams.. It gives me sense of moving on and achievement. This was what happen last year before final
But it didn't happen this year
I can't motivate myself.. I keep saying motivation but I've lost it.
Anyhow I still believe I'm keen on studying.. it's just something's not going right in me lately.
Arrrggghhhhhhh how? Killllll... ok, back to my revision

even if im not motivated, I still hope I can be a motivator of at least some others.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I'm back (:

I need somebody, a psychologist at best, or a sincere friend to talk to
someone who will listen to my words, give me some advices, yet won't spread the things
feel a bit lost recently, but early morning today I decided to find myself and to be the usual self again
hehehe.. dont know what im talking about
anyway, I'm back to my revision, after 2 weeks of slacking..
i'd been on viwawa often or otherwise at work (not uni work!).. now i ban myself from vww already..
worth mentioning as well: regarding the finished ink of the pen that i mentioned in previous post, i'd been using it for 1+ year
it's not just 1 or 2 day that I finished using it la okk.. funny, somebody thought so :P

while typing this, sis msn-ed me "harlo, pama miss you"
awwwwwww... this is so sweet.. ahaha.. i dont think they ever missed me since i came to england?!
oh ok.. at least they never said so (:
i miss them too.. every single family member of mine.. very much.
talk about msn, recently quite often i forget to sign in - i dont know why la
just.. something wrong about me, but anyway.. im back on msn too! - although i may be doing something else and will rarely reply anyone.. -_-"
OK, basically just want to declare battle against final - should be revising not blogging!

Good luck to everyone (:

Friday, April 03, 2009

Swollen finger due to 'excessive' writing

I wonder whether anyone is like me - normally when I write loads word the middle finger of my right hand will get swollen, it hurts a bit when it just appears, and takes quite long time to disappear.
I know the problem is actually because I hold pen too tightly and write too hard - the whole table normally waggle until those that sit beside me usually split their table from mine during high school.. hahahah..

That's why normally I try to get this kind of pen

You may realize or not, there is a little rubber thing to let you hold, although it doesnt help too much, but at least it does.. slightly
Obviously I've nearly finished the ink. =/
and this is my new pen... just 3 hours of note writing my middle finger bengkak :(

What to do?

This is the pencil that has followed me for.. about 5 or 6 years

Guess what I've done to solve my problem - Look carefully,


Hahahaha.. Wuliao, I know
but trust me and try it, it helps!! (:
(Note on 01.03.2012: I don't know why the pictures wouldn't show anymore, but basically I moved the rubber from a mechanised pencil to a ball pen so that it's softer for the middle finger, and it really helps!)

Anyway, I believe nowadays not many have the chance to write excessively..

Monday, March 30, 2009

Sigh

It should be a day for celebration
as I finally handed in my draft to Kerry - not really a final draft, but I can't be bothered anymore
Yet worry destroys the supposingly joyful mind..
why?
I shall talk about it on or after Tuesday,
if I can take it.. at all.

God bless me, and those rushing their works (:

Thursday, March 26, 2009

The End

It came to the very end of week 12 of semester 2 of my final year
Attended two lectures today -
Tim Jones' Mental Health & the Elderly and Jonathan Elcock's Social Constructionism
And.. that's it!
We took a few pictures in our favourtite lecture room TC001 (:
not going to write too much about my 3 years uk uni life, perhaps until I finish my exam on 7th of May

Totally have no life recently
Sleep at 2am, or sometimes 5am, 3pm, 5pm
and have dinner at 9pm or 12am
totally random!
Just sleep whenever I feel my brain isn't functioning
then wake up in 3-6 hours, ignoring the real world day and night time -_-"
Apart from myself, I think the thing that works hard as well is my alarm clock XD
Anyway, why am I free to blog?
Today I went to see my diss supervisor Kerry Rees
Guess what!! he allows me to hand in my final draft on Monday
it changed the fact from 2000-word-a-day to 1000-word-a-day, plus the reference, appendix and some amendments.. Love him!!
I really wonder why - I'm probably the earliest who started my diss - before summer last year, but ended up having no life to finish it up. huibee, damn sat bai la you..
Really appreciate Kerry's help, hope I'll be able to work out the best of my final of final draft.
And then, 3 final papers waiting for me - shouldn't be a big problem
hopefully I will be working hard enough to impress myself (please remind HuiBee about this as often as you can..)
just realized I haven't talked to mama for 2-3 weeks -_-"
Can they still remember they have a daughter in the UK?!?!

one final thing -
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to the girl that deserve all the happiness in the world - PEIMAN!!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Just to blog

Aaaaaaah!! Can't believe it, I hadn't blogged for one week!!
think it's the longest gap so far (except when I'm away of course :)), and this is no good!
I may become the blogger who blog only once a month! no good no good!
But recently I'm only exposed to 2 things

1 assignments/dissertation
2 viwawa

So how on earth can I possibly blog something nice, interesting, fresh, positive etc?
I'm thinking maybe the "2" should be "1".. XD
having kind of severe addiction on it now, and my work is getting more and more behind, especially my dissertation
Just can't get motivated, on the very final 3 weeks of my uni life.. losing control on myself..


P.S. Many Thanks to those leaving comments on my previous post, very impressive - of who actually read my blog.. :D. Hope you guys got to share my happiness, I can still feel a bit excited - it's one week later already!

Saturday, March 07, 2009

All England Super Series Badminton Tournament 2009

I can't believe that!! I had been wanting to go to watch since I came to the UK, and thanks very very much to Jeffrey (for what? I dont know!), I think it's he and me that make this happened! Although it's not the final match, I'm more than happy and contented today.. really, very seriously. Let's start the day from the noon, when we (Bpeng and me) were in the train..

Marv called me, asking where we were and guess what? they were having lunch in the same restaurant with Lee Chong Wei, Tan Boon Heong and their coaches. OMGGGG!! I was damn excited after hearing that, and feel like jump from the train and run there!!

After arriving, we rushed ourselves there to meet Marv, WaiLeng and Dayna. At the second I pushed the door in, guess who was at the other side of the door....... Taufik!! Then, trying to calm myself, we sat down first and started a bit chatting, while waiting Chongwei they all to finish their meals.

What next? two persons passed by, WaiLeng and Dayna were saying something like "two gays", but I recognized them!! the one walking at the front was Xie Xin Fang (谢杏芳), and of course the guy walking with her was Lin Dan (林丹).. I got kind of excited and asked Marv, shall we.....?!?!

Then immediately, not even Waileng being able to react, Marv, Bpeng and me ran to chase them.. lollll.. I swear, I never did this in my life, I never chase Leehom, SHE, Yanzi or whoever!! And my first time is for LinDan.. -_-" Then we realized two of them were pak-tor-ing.. But insisted not to let ourselves regret, we decided to interupt them.. while Marv and I were still discussing who and how to approach them, Bpeng already went to say "不好意思" (excuse me).. Then we took photos with them..!!!!!!! although they didnt seem to be very happy, but still quite friendly la.. (at least didnt say no ma!) I was so excited that my hands shaked! Before we left, we did remember to 加油 for them..

Superstar Lindan and his pretty gf.

Then with such huge excitements, 3 of us went back and took photos with ChongWei and Kuan Beng Hong, at this time, Tan Boon Heong went to toilet -_-" (when he came out and saw us taking photos, he walked out directly...)

The Malaysian happy family.. :D

Guess who took this photo? The couch!! lol.. they're very friendly!!
Look at his smile, so ... err.. fake yet real, guess he learnt that from me..
Next I saw Marv and WaiLeng busy taking photos with the couches, whereas ChongWei was doing nothing there, so I approached him and said "宗伟,可以跟你再拍张照吗" OMFG, I called him ChongWei... -_-" it's like we are old mates or something like that.. *shy*

Errr.. I feel I look like a superstar, more than he does.. XD

The world number 1s, I've met them both!! taken photos..!! We were so excited and couldn't calm ourselves down for such a long time..!! seriously... My brain wasn't functioning after that, didn't even feel like eating although I was really hungry! It's kind of waste not taking pics with Tan and also Taufik.. it'd be perfect if we'd met Koo Tan also..

Then in the evening, we walked to the NIA to watch the quarter final matches. Kind of disappointing and I guess it doesn't really worth my sleeping time to blog about it.. Ahahaha.. just kidding, but the matches of the Men Doubles, both were disappointing.. : ( we watched 4 Malaysians games, and only ChongWei won.. Even Koo and Tan lost : (

But it was GREAT!! to support the Malaysian team live! not on the TV, not shouting to the TV, but there, when you shouted "malaysia boleh" or "xx jia you", they can hear it! To see some live matches just right in front your eyes, and our seats were great too! To feel the smash and the reactions of the audience.. very ganjiong!! To shout randomly with some other unknown yet familiar malaysians. To meet those superstars.. well worth.. seriously!

Very happy today, very distinct exciting experience.. Hope the Malaysian badminton has brighter future.. and those top seeded players can be... more stable! I'd want to go again if there is another opportunity! Malaysia Boleh!!

Monday, March 02, 2009

Fresh

I feel so much better now, thank you very much for whoever showed concerns
they're all very much appreciated
I don't know what happened and I thought I could be so depressed that you know, in term of clinically depressed, in term of mental health problem
because I sat in front of the laptop and crying for nothing, yup, it may not be nothing, it's just something that I don't even can give a guess..
And I think that's because I'm a psychologist, it makes me aware of many things, that as a so-called normal people shouldn't be aware of..
anyway, I'm OK now, getting better I guess, trying best not to just pretend good but be real good, and hoping people around me are all fine too.

This morning Jeff, Shinyee and I went to a park for a ... WALK
I wanted to go jogging, serious, for many reasons,
for the feeling of sweating and healthy..
for my old best mate who was once jogging 7km marathon with me
for a pair of jogging shoes that I wished to buy but I quited jogging.. lol
(but for some sorts of reasons we ended up just walking)
The place was really nice.. It made me feel really fresh after coming back..
and felt the local life.. bringing your kids around, to the playground, to look at the little animals, to feel the spring, to simply breath the fresh air..
it's a bit odd la.. having that kind of retiree life at my age, but the feeling was good, as you get to leave you assignments problems difficulties and pain ...
we saw old couples walking and sitting by the lake, and imagining 50 years later.. :D

But.. I don't feel the motivation, the power, the force come to me yet
don't feel like doing many works yet..
whereas in fact in 3 weeks time, the last semester of my uni is officially coming to an end, 3 weeks!
unbelievable..
need some motivation.. or perhaps .. stress?
This Friday we're going to Birmingham for the All England badminton tournament!!!
It's just a quater final though
but I'm still damn excited with it..
hopefully get to see some nice matches..

Want to go to Alton Tower, to go skiing, to plan my not-so-bright future, to travel with Sammi and the others, to some nice cities in the UK, to sit down and have nice chats and laugh for silly things, to go picnic etc etc..
So many things to do, yet so little time left..
Hmmm.. I may not blog that often..

Best of luck to everyone out there, whatever you're doing.. : )

Saturday, February 28, 2009

moody

feel like crying again, dont know what happened these days, but i feel i'm depressed, and miss home very much, last week when that backache got really serious i cried for hours.. i thought i was fine. but i merely seemed ok.. yesterday night i cried to sleep.. i didnt and wouldn't want to admit this, im never like that.. but now it's very difficult.. to hear your friend crying out loud, not being able to help, it made me even depressed.. my tears came out on its own.. it reminded me few days ago when i locked the room and cried on my own, trying to lower my voice.. i couldn't figure out why, it lasts too long.. hope things go well soon, hope the girls in the house will all be fine soon..

i get back and stay strong after the tears. i hope you can make it too.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

You must be Jo King!

Just saw the BBC News regarding the most unfortunate names. It did make me laugh out loud. Have a look - click here : )


Retired airman Stan Still, 76, from Cirencester, Gloucestershire, said his name had been "a blooming millstone around my neck my entire life".

"When I was in the RAF my commanding officer used to shout, 'Stan Still, get a move on' and roll about laughing," he said.

"It got hugely boring after a while."


Susan Mee, Doncaster
"My name was Susan Frame. I am a lawyer. I met and married Robert who is a banker. His surname is Mee. Now we are Sue Mee, a lawyer, and Rob Mee, a banker - ironic? I have taken no end of stick for this, believe me."


This one is so hilarious!! A family name - Mee.. Imagine a lawyer saying her name is "Sue Me" and a banker "Rob Me"... XDD

How about Curry Mee, Pan Mee, Indo Mee..

OK. I do agree that it's kind of rude to laugh at other's name.. no offence taken please.. well, me myself also have a surname that can make jokes of...

Monday, February 23, 2009

WTH.. PMS Buddy?

Guess what I've found:

PMS Buddy Saving relationships, one time at a month!

And they even have it on facebook.. PMS Buddy on Facebook -_-"
Does that mean that when your auntie's visiting they'll give you (or your bf, or whoever use it) a notification? If so, the whole friends network is going to know when your auntie's visiting lor? - then they can write on your wall sending regards etc etc.. OK, perhaps I think too much, perhaps it doesnt work at all.. :D

Isn't that ridiculous? I mean, is it that serious? I know la, perhaps those stuff are set up for some kind of "Just For Fun" purposes, but I do think people may take it quite seriously..

And, ya lar, recent years I started to feel that they do affect my mood, I can get moody and very low without very apparent reasons, and I'm glad there's something to blame, i.e. the hormone. But I guess it's not everyone who get affected (right?). at least previously I wasn't and sometimes I'm not. Whereas for many people, they are like in PMS all the time - very irritable and impetuous all the time.. this includes some guys..

This reminds me our geography teacher (Ms. 翁明娇) during high school.. ahahahaha.. She used to be a good teacher and she teached really well I'd say, but the latter few years she became really impatient and @#$%^&*... Then a few guys in our class "spotted" her PMS quite accurately.. ahahahaha.. good old memory.

Anyway, perhaps somebody try the site or application, then tell us whether it's useful la k? :D

Saturday, February 21, 2009

:'(

my back is seriously uncomfortable,
wondering whether it's the bend of the backbone has got more serious
can't stand the feeling..

miss home very much..

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Tuesday Blue

Haih.. I don't know what's wrong with me today, had been so low and moody, not even chocolate can cheer me up. Then all day long, apart from attending class in the morning and talking with mama, I did literally nothing! Supposed to start a bit reading for Thinking and Reasoning research, but.. haih.. What's wrong What's wrong? Menopause perhaps? Ahahaha.. crazy, I'm not even 22 okk. And, don't know why whenever it's assignment peak season or exam period, I'll definitely get addicted to at least one game -whatever it is. This time is at Viwawa, a game called Bridge (guess it's one of the most addicting games for me, it's different from some previous ones because I call it an intellectual game.. ha).

Then just now discussed Marv's birthday with they all, even kek sim.. I wonder whether people actually step into other's shoe and think for other.. And the conference can surround the same question for ages. I don't know why I was so irritable also.. hmm.. But they all are really quite cincai.. If I were Marv I'd be probably disappointed by us, especially it's his 21st.. Anyway, I'm not the so-called "bro" or "good friend" or whatever.. I do my best..

Something made me feel better is the conversation with mum, basically most of the times we're discussing similar topics, like their attendance to my convo this end of year, when erge's going to marry, how busy ahjeh is and how free gogo is, my weight (XD), job hunting after final, how bad the economic is, papa's knee recovery, or what happen to those 3 gu 6 poh. The delighting point is they will most probably be coming to see me and for my convo, and my sis may come with them.. well, may.. Oh whose parents are also coming? We can form an old folks group.. XD

OK. Finally, if you did notice, I said "had been so low and moody", because just now I read Felicia's fwd email ("OMFG our Miss Pageant Malaysia).. and.. really LMAO.. Please let me know if you'd like to see, for.. god sake I'm not going to forward them to everyone, feel so sorry for the girls.. but it will probably cheer you up .. : D

But still, I'm not motivated to start my assignment.. no mood.. no mood.. no mood..

P.S. When I saw the "Blue" (title there) in green, Stroop effect came to my mind.. -_-"

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentine's Day

Thursday, February 12, 2009

A New Life

I had been thinking to get something alive in my room for quite a long time, (it'd be great if it can be a dog!!) until the beginning of December last year, I've got a little "bulb" from WoolWorth when it was going to close down. Guess this is not the first time I grow a plant, (for sure, most people grow something like mung bean or water chestnut during primary school, right?) but it still excites me quite much.. especially when its grow has become so obvious day by day..!!

This is its box, a white hyacinth, originally I planned to get a blue purple one, but I thought I was going to Austria skiing trip that time and I wouldn't be able to take good care of it (in fact it doesn't really require any care..), so being stupid I didn't buy it when I first saw it in the shop. Later I realized that it was actually going to close down, and I can actually get it first, while start growing it later.. Unfortunately, few days later when I went again, there were only plenty of white left! :( :( - Anyway I do love white colour very much.. it's just the blue purple look great on it.

If you don't know what a hyacinth is, it's 风信子, sounds any familiar? Thanks to Chorpeng, because I didn't know that as well, but when I told him I bought a bawang for £3, immediately he asked whether it is 风信子.. geng ley..! OK, not going to grumble too much.. This post is dedicated to my little hyacinth - its growing process, and I'll be updating it often until it's really a grown up.. (eh, that's not a human la..)

2008.12.23 The beginning.. this was how it looked like.. a bawang, right? (Bear with me the quality of the pic, I don't understand why on earth I took a pic without focus..)

2008.12.29 About one week later.. I could finally see "something" there.. (Eh? is there a difference?)

2009.01.19 I checked it nearly daily I think, and about three weeks later, it had just made this BIT difference..

Same day, perhaps there wasn't much difference "up there", but its roots grew damn fast..

2009.01.22 it speeds up a bit, I can see its grow

2009.01.30 When I showed it to Bee Peng, she said probably by the time we graduate the flower will be there.. lol

2009.02.06 Miracle of life..

2009.02.09 It's growing very much faster now..

2009.02.10 I can see the flower.. Can you???

2009.02.11 They came out the next day.. :) :)

2009.02.12 Finally.. (notice the dates, it started growing fast fairly recently..)

Same day, another view.. I can see that it will be very pretty.. hahaha.. What do you think?

Monday, February 09, 2009

End of CNY

15天就这样快过去了耶 还真的有点快
想想其实华人也蛮夸张的吧.. 一年只有那么12个月
其中的半个月竟然都在过年耶
换句话说 如果你活60岁, 其中的2.5年在过年!!

其实虽然嘴巴说快 但是大部分时候都还是希望它快点过
之一是因为在新年其间你总是可以给自己很多借口不做该做的事
之二呢 是每每想到是新年却又没有新年气氛也不像在过 心里就蛮郁闷的吧
所以 还是过了好...

元宵节啊 不知道会不会有聚会吃饺子
stephy & peiman说"吃脚趾", 傻的咯.. 干嘛吃脚趾 XD
最近聚会有点频密 开始觉得就算聚会大家也是小组聊天 有点... 没意思了吧
(但是当然 聚会还是要的啦..!!)
刚好5天后就是214 情人节
Selina 说 "最后冲刺啊!!" 哈哈..猜她冲刺什么...?
找男朋友.. 她说要在星期六前找到男朋友过情人节
她那个"最后冲刺"的语气.. 超好笑.. : D

好呗 其实没什么要写了 很累很想睡了..
新年的最后一天... 祝大家 元宵节快乐~
希望接下来可以专心好好做 assignments & diss 吧..

Friday, February 06, 2009

Snow Snow Snow

For the first time in a few decades.. there were heavy snow in Cheltenham!!
(and many regions in the UK) (2nd Feb)


The view from my room. It's a primary school. (5th Feb)
Those kids are the ones who normally wake me up in the morning.. Haha..


A pretty snowlady by Bee Peng and me..
hmm OK la Felicia did contribute a bit.. (5th Feb)


Snow fight + Snowman making in Hardwick campus today.. Peiman and Stephy not in the pic..(6th Feb)

Would you really love snow if you live in a city that snow throughout the winter?


I don't think I would.. they are damnnn dirty and geli!
and in fact snow brings people so much inconvenience..
(e.g. class being cancelled, public transportation not working, cars being stuck in snow, heating bills going up, bruise after snow fight -_-")
But occasionally playing snow can create so much fun!! : D
Anyway, I hope this is the last heavy snowing day..
because the snow has been sooo distracting..
it ruined my plan of doing assignments every day! :( :(
I just can't help playing them, because we really haven't got much opportunity like this!!

Snow Castle..! Never knew snow can be used like sand, I want to try!! -Taken from BBC News

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Is Britain going bankrupt?

As most of my friends know, I normally read SinChew news and BBC (not daily but nearly). Yet never did I come across any news regarding whether or not the Britain is going bankrupt. And guess when I first got this news? It was from my parents -_-" Yea la my dad is like "digesting" the newspaper every day, but I thought this is "nearer" and more related to me, why never I came across it? Just saw the news regarding the we-think-wonderful-yet-destructive snow has cost the government more than 1 thousand million pounds.. and if it (the wonderful snow) gets "further", more than 3000 companies may close down. Haih.. I feel a bit sorry I've been expecting snow (yes, have been, it's still going on..), will share the photos I take these days next time, in a delightful post. Those are some articles I googled and think some may interest you..

"Obama is talented but he is not a magician. Instead, Gordon Brown's nightmare, in which we are all trapped, is going to get much worse."

Iain Martin: Gordon Brown brings Britain to the edge of bankruptcy

“We’ve been in a much worse position than we are today.
“People are getting unbelievably gloomy, but I have been around long enough to remember the 70s when we had to have the IMF [International Monetary Fund bail-out], we had a three-day working week, we had candles in rooms and we couldn’t get home by train.
“We are not going to have that.”


Andrew Dodge: UK going bankrupt?

Monday, February 02, 2009

Bitch War

Note: Just a grumbling post written yesterday.

Yesterday seems to be the worst working day since I started working here two years ago. Don't know why they made things sooo complicated. This morning the supervisor Jess scolded Emily and Jess II, later when we were all working in fitting room, I asked them what just happened -- basically just a topic la. After done, Jess asked me to give her a hand, and somehow secretly, she asked me whether Emily said anything about her to me. I was kind of shocked and just smiled, then said she didn't really say anything (a very silly lie, obviously everyone complains after they get scolded, right?) but said I did ask her what she talked to them. Then, she asked "Would you tell what they said or you don't want to tell?" Tell me, if you were me what will you answer her? Why on earth would she expect me that I'm her "gang" and I'll betray those that working hard with me? They are very new, I forgive them and give chances, but I never want to be involved in those British bitch war, I want George back! Everyone on our floor wants him back.. The sentence that I heard the most after she's become supervisor - "I'm very disappointed" So what? I'm also very disappointed and I hate working with you!! Those words make really low morale. I know they know me and they do appreciate me, sometimes after they scold everyone, they will "secretly" come to me and say those words weren't meant to say me. But that doesn't help.. and it will never help. I wonder why there are so many bitches here and why they all don't like each other, at the same time, they call each other bitch! lmao

I guess despite my age of 21+ age, I'm still no good in getting along well with people. I just make mistakes and wrong judgments all the time. Was it due to the way of avoidance? Now I'm thinking to get myself out from first floor... But there is no point of having we all leaving but them staying, we had been working really happily before they came. Why would the management blame us when there are problems? Steve met me in Tesco that day and tricked me, he even said that "we have been working together for two years you should know my voice" Right, so now does he know me well then? Ok perhaps he does, but how about the rest of the colleagues? Didn't he realize we had been all fine until Jess and Becky lead us?

It is just so happening. I feel being used. No, I was in fact being used. Perhaps most of the time when I feel sad it isn't really about me, but ... I want to stop myself from being involved, especially when people gossip.. because it makes me bias and can't judge things and people justly, but apparently I fail most of the time.. ha. It's kind of surprising.. because I still care, after all this way of brain washing. This is a sequel to the post Disgusted. ridiculous, when I reread, I realized those words still apply! It's simply a complicated world. It's fine sometimes when you scheme, but not intrigue, especially towards those that you call good friends.